NJM # 8 – wallow

Wallow: To devote oneself entirely to something; to indulge

I have sunk myself in this,
water creeping over the edges of boots,
seeping into torn fabric,
soaking into skin until it becomes wrinkled, soft.
I have dug myself this trench of will,
this fortress, this blessing
made walls out of promises,
a moat out of confidence
and fortified towers with archers of hope.
I have given myself over to its worship,
its devotion and certainty.
I believe in the faith of the newly converted
in matters greater than religion.
I am its single priest,
divulging the secrets of this
earthly goddess.

Not the completeness of my life,
or the missing piece to my own sanctity
but the fulfillment, the finishing touch –
the polish.

I shine brighter when in her presence
than I did alone.
I am a better person with her,
than without her.
I am full of grace and beloved.
I’m going to stay mired in this glory, always.