change and grattitude

Lots of things running around in my world lately. I’m slammed at work, so can’t write a long, drawn out diatribe of the state of my world, but things are good. I had Bronchitis a few weeks ago, I think I may have mentioned it. Everything but the cough went away and then came back with a vengence last week. I felt like crap. I think I’m slowly starting to get better, though.

We did our photo shoot with Anna for our engagement/save the date pictures on the 10th. It went well, even though Devon was a cranky pants. I’ll post some pictures when we have the whole set done – right now we only have a couple for preview so we can get an idea of how we want them to look. After that is complete, we’ll have our save the date magnets ordered and going out right on time – just under 6 months before the wedding.

Devon’s Dad and step mom surprised us by getting us the Reception hall at no cost – he’s going to do a free concert there sometime. Life on the island is more of a barter system than money changing hands for things. It’s a quaint, tiny litle world, and more and more, I’m wishing I could live there.

The night before last, devon said the sweetest thing to me that really started hitting me hard afterwards. She told me, in our conversations about our day that she missed me bad – so bad it hurt. I asked her where it hurt, and she pointed to her chest. I said “your heart?” and she said “no….our heart.” Don’t know why it struck me as such a sweet and tender thing to say, but it did. We don’t complete each other, but having the other person there makes who we are better…I am a better person for knowing and loving her, and having her in my life. Sometimes it hits me out of the blue that, unlike like others who have come into my life and left, when she says things, she means them – and she’s really not going anywhere. She’s in this, period. And I’m just as devoted to her, and our life together.

I am so grateful….so thankful for the life that I’ve been given now. I have filled it with wonderful people, created a wonderful family for myself and a wonderful sense of being. Everything seems beautiful. Last year, I knew that spring came early – this year, I realized that it really never left. I still feel butterflies in my stomach, and the twitterpation of new love and adoration, every single day….I’m looking forward to the rest of my life like this.

I quit smoking a week ago. I can technically say that, since I am not inhaling “smoke” of any kind any longer – I switched to an e-cig brand with the menthol cartridges, and so far it is working really well for me. It’s a lot cheaper than smoking cigarettes or cigars, and a lot healthier, too. I still get my nicotine (although, I’m finding I need less and less) without all the other added crap that causes cancer and makes your lungs turn funny colors. I don’t plan on being dependent on these for the rest of my life, but even if I was – i would still be a lot healthier for it. In a week, I can already tell a big difference, not getting winded as easily, my cough has improved (even despite being sick) etc. It’s a good thing

Also, Devon and I purchased an Elliptical machine that folds up for storage for our little apartment, and we are both committed to losing weight and getting in better shape. With the meds, and the happiness it’s been easier to not pay attention. I have continued to work out regularly, although through periods when I was really sick, I was unable to exert myself, but I”m still not getting the results I really want, so this machine should assist with that. That, and its definitely swimming season again – both of which are wonderful, low impact exercises that I love doing. So yay, go us.

Back to work – having a really good day, minus a minor snaffoo this morning. Some people just don’t matter.