Mixed Feelings

I have a job interview tomorrow, but I have mixed feelings about it. 

On Sunday, I talked with my friend Diane who did her internship at the same school I did.  We have gotten very close, and I consider her a good friend.  She told me that she had an interview at NHS, the school where our supervisor from the university is a counselor.  The head counselor from that school had scheduled the interview with Diane based on what he had heard from another school she had interviewed with, and she said she didn’t think our supervisor even knew there was a position yet.

Even though Diane and I have discussed many times the possibility that we will be applying and interviewing for the same jobs (and agreed that this is okay, it is not personal, and that the right person will be hired), I decided that since I only knew about the open position because of her, I would not send my resume.  It just felt weird, and I wasn’t sure how I would feel about working so closely with my supervisor anyway.

Fast forward to yesterday morning, when I get an email from our supervisor addressed to me, Diane, and our friend Mindy (another member of our supervision group), letting us know that a position had opened at her school and that she had asked that the counseling department look very closely at our resumes.  Honestly, my heart kind of dropped and leapt at the same time.  I knew that after she sent this email, I really had to apply.  I honestly felt like it would be rude to her not to do so.  At the same time, I had already decided in my mind that it was Diane’s interview and I had been a little relieved that I wouldn’t have the prospect of interviewing with an entire counseling team that included my supervisor. At the same time, I was happy because this meant that our supervisor hadn’t known about the position previously (it would have made me feel bad if she hadn’t told me).  At the same time, I know two people who will be my competition (Diane and Mindy), and they are both incredible!  The school would be fools not to hire any of us!! =)

Anyway, I submitted my resume yesterday morning, and the head counselor called me a couple of hours later to set up an interview.  I am doing all I can to prepare myself, but I am also going in knowing that my chances are only so-so.  This is actually okay.  Because I know how awesome the other girls are (not to mention other folks they are probably interviewing as well), I think that if I don’t get offered the job, I’ll be okay and won’t take it too personally.  Hopefully, I’ll at least get to be happy that one of my friends has a job.  I figure that it will be good experience to have an interview, and since they interview with the entire department, that will be at least 4 or 5 other counselors in that county that know who I am and can tell other schools about me. 

Send some positive vibes my way though, because even with all of that, it would be great to finally have a position and not be stressed out all the time. =) 

Off to prepare my interview clothes.