04/20/2010

36 weeks tomorrow.  That means that at the very latest, Joseph will be here in 6 weeks, although I certainly hope that he doesn’t wait that long.  My brother and I were both early, so even though I know it is a long-shot, I am crossing my fingers that he will be too!  It’s possible that he could be here in another 2 or 3 weeks!  Making it through the workday is getting more and more difficult and even though it is kinda neat being pregnant, I will be really glad when this stage is over and our little boy is actually on the outside.  I’m really trying to get everything ready at work for the end of the school year, but I am a little stressed that he will come and things won’t be finished.

Ryan has been so sweet and supportive, even when I’m at my most irritable.  I know I’ve had my moments, though I’ve tried not to be too bitchy. =)  It’s hard to resist my husband when he randomly leans over to kiss my belly in bed or talk to the baby.  He’s not really a gushy, sentimental type of guy, which makes it even sweeter.  I still feel that we will not be ready in a lot of ways – the house is kind of a wreck and there is a lot I had hoped to have done before he comes, but I am trying to remind myself that it’s okay if everything isn’t perfect.  He has a place to sleep, we have diapers and onesies, and I’ll be breastfeeding, so we’ll be able to meet all of his immediate needs!  Ryan is supposed to install the car seat this weekend.  Craziness!

I feel humongous, though I’m really not that big, relatively speaking.  However, even regular daily tasks are difficult, and I have to roll out of bed in the mornings.  Sleeping is tricky and getting harder every night – poor Ryan is going to be pushed out of the bed one of these nights as I toss and turn on all my pillows.

I’m getting more and more anxious to meet this little guy and to know what he looks like and what his little personality will be like.  He’s very active, and I’m wondering if this will be the same after he is born.  I have always said that I would want them to clean up the baby before I held him (newborns are gross!), but I realized recently that I’m so anxious to see him that I don’t think I’ll care at all!  Just can’t wait to see our little boy!