– i fall

it seems
that everytime i think
im getting ahead
something
somewhere
keeps pulling me back
keeps holding on to me

it seems
no matter how hard i try
or how long it takes
i fall
       i fall
back to where i began
back to the beginning…again

and as many
times as it takes
i get back up and do it all once more
and i say
to myself
i wont make the same
mistakes as before

and it seems
when i think ive gotten
ahead of where i was
i realize
im still here
in the same fucking place
that i thought i escaped from

it seems
no matter how hard i try
or how long it takes
i fall
      i fall
back to where i was when this began
back to the same beginning again
so i fall
            and fall
back to where this all began
and as i fall
                    and fall
i wonder
will this cycle ever end
pushing myself through it all
though my back stays against the wall
i fall….

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October 25, 2010

I love this! I could feel a beat in my body as I read it. Beautiful as always my friend!

October 25, 2010

I fall a lot too. But I figure I really do gain some insight or talent or whatever everytime I fall. I might fall again but a little differently each time.

October 25, 2010

Hi. Thx, but no I didn’t take the pic myself it’s from a background site.

October 25, 2010

ryn: aww. I’m sorry things haven’t been going well with your writing! If there’s anything I can do, just let me know. I’ve hit a pretty good stride compared to most of the time on mine lately. I just have so many thoughts rushing around that I can’t seem to get it all to make sense! -lol- I confuse myself.