the promises i cant keep and the addiction

i know this sounds crazy but i’m addicted to talking to this guy who i was at least i think i was inluv wit …… no matter how much i try to never talk to him i cant keep from still contactin him…. even though this time around he sent me a message telling me he was going to jail which yes it peaked my interest and i was curious to see if he was tellin the truth which he wasnt he just wanted to to se if i cared …. which sad to say i did just because i wanted to know what he did to get introuble… and then this morning we talked for a really long time. i was talked bout all the lies that were told and how now that we r speaking the air so to speak has been cleared. i wish i could just kick him cold turkey however that seems to be impossible. i have a bf who i have been wit for 11 yrs now we r not married and we live with his parents and we have no kids and he is the only one i have ever had sex wit and i keep telln myslef i’m not missin out on ne thing since i’ve been wit him …. in my mind i keep thinkin wats wrong wit me why cant i just be satified wit wit my bf i guess i’ll never know….. for those of u reading this i’d like ur take on this particular situation.