what to do?!?!?!?!?!?!
I really don’t know what to do. See this is where I’m at. Currently we live in Bradenton. Chris quit is job a week ago but had a job the very next day at the old place he use to work. But before he found that job, he said…hey let’s move. Let’s leave Florida. Of course, I said no because I’m scared too. Yesterday he was sitting on the couch saying that he just got a job offer in Gainesville. Ok, cool. But last night I said something to him and he said if it was up to me we would move. Now it has me thinking. I am looking up houses in Gainesville and they are really nice and cheap. So I don’t know what to do. I know he moved down here for me. And I’m willing to move for him. i’m scared too though. I know he wants to move to Alabama. I’m so lost at this point.
Yesterday when I was talking to my grandma she said something to me "why dont’ you send William to a VPK school around here just in case something was to happen, you would be closer to him". Well I said well I am going to look at a new school for Aimee on Monday up in Bradenton. She was like if you send her up there then just work up there. I was like that is my plan. She gave me this look. So I went walking with my aunt and I told her about the talk. She said that no matter what grandma says..she would be really hurt if I took the kids from her and she couldn’t see them everyday. I was doing what I thought was best for her too. I mean she wouldn’t have to worry about getting up early with the kids. She wouldn’t have to worry about getting Aimee up for school and fighting with her. So here I am thinking I’m doing something good. So that has me a little confused.
Right now I’m so confused about things. What do I do about the kids…do I keep them where they are or try something new? Do i move and hope it is for the best? Do I think my relationship with my husband would be better if we moved? Yes, I do. Do I think my relationship with my family will change if I move? Yes, i do.
I just want to tell Chris "Hey, let’s go!!!" But I am a "what-if" person. That is all that is going thru my head. I would love to move and start over. Start fresh. But as I just said…"what-if"!!!
