I hate life!!!!

I know I have been the one to complain about stuff lately.  I know people are going thru the same thing as I am.  But honestly, if I don’t get my sh*t together, I’m gonna be in the hospital. 

Things for me just to seem horrible.  We were suppose to get the rebate check together but I just received an email from TurboTax saying that we aren’t gonna get it now but around July 4(ssn numbers).  All i got to say if F*CK.  Chris had all these plans with this money and used some of it before we got it.  So he owed people money together.  Well guess what, because that has been done..we will have no money and I’m pretty sure I am gonna bounce something.  WAY TO GO!!!   But I’m not happy about it either because the one thing Chris does every year is gator season and I don’t know if we will have the money to get the license.  Oh well.  Not my fault. 

He said to me(because he isn’t home) are we gonna be ok.  I said probably not because we still need gas.  Oh I will be ok for the rest of the week.  I said I won’t.  He said that is why we have to park the truck.  Ok so in the back of my mind, you want me to park the truck and drive the car.  whatever.  But you can’t drive the other truck until we get it transfer.  Can’t get it transfered until we have extra money….hmmmmm.  Now tell me how am i gonna park my truck??!?!?!

I’m just over so much bullshit.   F*CK I hate life at the moment.  Why do I even try anymore?  There is so much that I want or need that there is no where in hell I’m gonna get them.   I can bitch and bitch and bitch…but hell, bitching doesn’t get me anywhere.   I can complain to him…tell him how I feel but I will get the answer…..everything will be ok.  NOPE, try again this time!

But you know, it’s not only at home but it is everywhere.  I have a job that I’m getting no where at.  I have a best friend who I haven’t spoke too.  She is suppose to be doing my resume so I can get a better job and she hasn’t bother to get back with me on that.  So that has me mad.  The economy really sucks.  I have a family that is all 2 faced.  There are all nice to you one minute and then talk about you the next. 

I just want to scream.