I always think at night!!!

Last night was rough for me.  Chris was out of town and I couldn’t sleep.  I don’t sleep well without him home.  I worry about him and of course, I heard every noise.  But I did a lot of thinking.

I know I HAVE to find another job or maybe a second one.  I can’t continue to live like this much longer.  I just did the checkbook and I just want to scream.   Then on top of that everytime I apply for a job…I swear I keep getting looked over.  But hey, I guess what is what you get when all you have under your belt is a grocery store and a daycare.   I really do regret quitting school.  Now it is to late.  I couldn’t go back if I tried at the moment.  Money is the factor.

I want to be able to give my kids everything that they need but I feel like I can’t because we just don’t have it.   It is so frustating.   Everything is frustating. 

I give and give and give….and have nothing to show for it.  I have a husband who is out racing the fourwheeler.   I have a truck that I can not drive anymore.   I have a house that needs major work done to it. 

People keep telling me to not worry about it..things will be fine.  Tell me when?

Does anyone have any words of advice?