a lot to write!

I know it has been a long time since I have written in here.  For some reason my computer won’t let me.  I have tried to fix it but no luck.  So if you want to chat, i have a myspace and I can give you my email address.  Let me know ok?!?!

Well lets see what has been going on.  I had back surgery again on my 29th birthday.  This time they took a disc out and put a new one in.  Then fused it all together.  So I have been healing from that.  It has been a rough road I will tell you that.  Still hurting a lot.

The kids are doing well.  Aimee is doing so much better at school.  And William is loving pre-k.  He hates going in the morning but doesn’t want to leave in the afternoon.  He has a girlfriend…it is so cute.  He is doing so well. I found out that he needs a lot of dental work done.  He needs to get his front two teeth pulled and then caps on the next two.  So we are going to get him evaluted for GA.  Only because I don’t think he will do well awake. 

Things at home have been ok.  Financially we are hurting…like most people. We are doing well as a married couple.  But of course we have our moments.  Me on the other hand….I’m not doing well.  I really think that I am headed towards depression.  I am going to the doctor on wednesday to talk to the doctor.  Between my back surgery, money, my kids, work, weight, etc I think things are finally getting to me.  I have been taking my pain pills just to block out everything.  And of course to take my back pain away.  But sometimes I take one just to block everything. 

On a different note, I think I may have found my father.  **I never knew him**  I have been emailing a guy he works with and he said that I will get to talk to him soon.  He promises me that.  Which I can’t wait.  But then again, I don’t get my hopes up.  I don’t want too.  I’m afraid it isn’t gonna happen though. 

Well I gotta go.  I didn’t realize what time it was.  I have so much more to write about.  If you want to chat, email me at bigchevsgirl@gmail.com or you can check out my myspace http://www.myspace.com/doubleduty