Easter

If you ask me, Easter has got to be one of the silliest holidays. I mean think about it, some 2000+ years ago, way back before any type of technology and sophisticated doctors, this dude “jesus christ” was supposedly nailed to a cross. Supposedly he died, was “burried” (in some kind of cave) and two days later “rose from the dead”. It seems to me, the dude was probably unconcious or near death, but certainly not dead if he “came back to life”. Now, after 2000+ years these silly christians are still celebrating this crazy story of someone coming back to life.

Anyway, gf came over this morning and cooked me breakfast. we watched a movie and hung out for awhile which was cool. then I took a nap and watched 2 movies, been doing homework, now doing my facials, etc. can’t wait for this math class to be over in just over 2 weeks. 4 more classes until I finally get my degree and after math it is all easy stuff. I did my best with math 1, started grasping the subject, but after the car accident etc, I haven’t had time for math II and I’m basically having friends, family and online help to just get through this crap. I’m not going to school to be a rocket scientist, so why do I need to know this crap?

past two days I have woken up with back pain. seems to be getting worse instead of better. car accident was over 3 weeks ago now. been working part time from home which is great. going to PT 3x a week which I think is making things worse. supposed to go back to the doc on friday but may go tomorrow. I still don’t know if this moron who hit me even had insurance so I can sue his ass. need to call my lawyer tomorrow and get him moving on this.

Gokhan is gone. gf and I said our goodbye thursday night. tried to play one game with him, had a hard time sitting or standing that night. holding back the tears on the way out and broke down on the way to the car. tears in my eyes on my way home from PT friday too. Been preparing myself for this but I’m still a little depressed the past two days. Still haven’t heard from him if he even got there. I’m sure with the time change he is adjusting and with not seeing his family for 3 years he is catching up, but I wish I’d hear from him. miss seeing him online.

Reviews/Raises are coming up this week. Obviously I’ve more than demonstrated I can work remotely and hopefully they will accept my request to work from the miami office this Jan, Feb, and March. I just cannot stand it up here anymore in the winter. The season change again and Gokhan leaving could explain my being depressed the past 2 days.