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Good Morning to all.

It is 8 am and I haven’t been to sleep yet. It really isn’t to much of a surprise, just a few hours past the usual time I would be going to sleep. I am not home though, chilling at Nikki’s and Cat’s for the night. I came over to hang out, play some Call of Duty Black Ops, also to be able to grab this Application form Di Bella’s today. I think I’m going to the staffing agency as well. That all depends on when they wake up, since we have a time limit to be home before Sara has to go to work, I never got to see her when she got off work last night, she went out right after work and I left before she came home.

Let’s see so far Nikki, Cat, and I have been able to accomplish going to nikki’s mom’s house to play all our, we’ll they played their lovely facebook games and chat with her mom. While we we there we each ate a double hamburger. Once we left Nikki’s mom’s house, we went to wal-art for..god knows what. We left with a few more things then expected but that always seems to happen when anyone goes to wal-mart. After we left wal-mart we went to Steak and Shake, then to Mc donalds, needless to say we smashed! Came back to the apt, I spilt an extr large white great, white owl shell so I can roll to mini blunts. Cat and I smoked one on the balcony, and I could swear to god even though Nikki sad far enough away from us she got geeked just being around Cat and my silly ass. We sat and played Black ops for a while, Cat fell asleep, and then here we are. They went to bed and I can’t sleep after five seconds ago while we were playing the game I was going to pass out.

Oh, P.s Black ops = GREATNESS!            —- That games so fucking crazy playing the shit on Xbox live. Rules my life. I thought I enjoyed Halo. I might have to buy my self a 360 some time soon. I like the Wii to and they got this great red one out at the moment! idk.

Cat and Nikki have been amazing friends in the past few months. I know I have had things in our friendships past that have done some damage, but they have been threr for me in so many ways that friends i think should do it don’t. I never expected this great of a friend ship from them. They really care about me and my well being. Therre’s not many people i involve in my life or even talk to any more. I could prob name every single one of them and no exceed having to count beyond my own fingers and toes. I’m very careful who I have kept close to me, and who i bring my self to talk to. They give advice at the same time as they ask for it, and love and support me regaurdless of my decisions weather there stupid, childish, or outrageous.

Thinking about all that makes me realize how much I miss Tiff. I talk to her atleast once a week, every two weeks at most. I know what happened over the past year and a half has been entirely fucked, ruined everything between us. Though this isn’t exactly the first time something like this happened between us, and each one has brought us closer together. Since the day i met tiff she has always been there for me. Before she came back to ohio, she was in Florida and we would talk for hours on the phone. Before she left for florida then she ways always there trying to help me with shit. SINCE I WAS !^!!!! I miss our random drives to know where, I miss waking up and seeing here, I miss hanging with her every second of every day. I missed the way our friendship hadn’t changed after we broke up. Thats a real fucking friendship. She knows me in ways I have never expected her to, she knows more about my past and some of the things I have been through then any one. Shes the first person I confided in when I was begining my transition, and the one person who stood by my side and carried me through the worsts down fall of my entire life. She watched drink my self stupid on cough syrup and beer for months straight, just to slap me out of it. I just miss her that’s all. I need her in a time like this…she kinda my rock.

I’m kind of scared to go to sleep and not wake up to get home intime to see Sara before she goes to work. That would be real shitty, and I miss her, haven’t kissed her in for ever, and it’d ruin my entire day.

D.j