Potential

So monday I have an interview at Kohl’s. I’m hoping I get it, it would put me in the right direction to be able to, "change" things a little faster. I think that I am going to try and get a second job as well, just to try and pull a little more money in, so I can get a car, and a palce a little bit faster. Thought We’ll see how that goes weather or not I get this job, and how the hours and pay may work. It gives me a little hope for the future.

My whole plan was to wake up to day and call Kohls and a few other places, and when I woke up I just didnt wake up, but when I woke back up Sara informed me that Kohls called me for an interview. I called back and set everything up. Tomorrow I’m going to call the few other places I have jsut to keep options open. I am going to eventually need a second job. The more money I can put in my pockets right now is only going to benefit me in the end. The sounds sad that at this point money is going to make me happy, but i cant get my hormones with out money, I cant get a car with out money, I cant go out and do things I enjoy with out money, or even get any where for that matter. Its not that the money is going to make me happy its just is a door opener I suppose you can say.

I started dying this week. Its kinda of horrible, my cramps are as bad as last month but, its enough to make me want to vomit. Its making me really sluggish. Mentally and physically. I’m going to try and get some of my work out done today since I tried yesterday but any time I bent slightly at the waist i thought i was going to die. Im not in as much pain right now so im going to take advantage of it. before they end up getting bad again then I get pissed because I didn’t do it. This week I have been extra crappy and aggitated very easily. Like just the slightest smart comment and I’m just a cock for no reason. Blah its kinda shitty and i feel real bad for Sara and anyone ive come in contact with..may god bless you lol..

Thats all for now. Gunna work out, just had to write bout the potential job.