One hour at a time

   Apperently I have a week to straighten up what ever it is wrong that I’m doing at work. Until they what…fire me?? Every other fucking day it’s something fucking else. So I am busting my ass everyday making sure they have no reason to give me shit about it everything. It’s really begining to piss me off that everyday I get to work someones coming up to me complaining to me about something that I am doing wrong.One thing I know for a fact that I didn’t do it because I ran out long before the night was over and what not. It’s just stressful to always wonder what there going to come up with next.

I went and made a payment on my fines today. Only 500 and some odd dollars til its paid off. Kind of made me feel good. i helped Alyda and Erin change Erin’s tire and her car, then just kinda of left. I really wanted to kick it for a minute and what not with Alyda but after the shit that she pulled last night, and just how weird things are I kinda just wanted to see her with my own two eyes. Nothing to say just wanted to see her and be in her presence. I’m not completely sure the whole hanging out thing is the best right now. I just can’t help be have to have something to do with her. I love her and have to have her apart of my life. It’s killing me she can’t just be mine. She said it hurt her she couldn’t be mine and talk about a dagger to the heart. She’s going to come with me to Kc’s party tomorrow after work. I’m kinda of glad we can both try and have fun. I hope everything goes well. The last thing is for something to be akward or just some one upset.

i have my room pretty much in working order. I broke in my bed on tuesday no wensday, one of those two. Alyda came over after work and year. I was seeing angels all day the next day. To sleep next to her and wake up seeing her there made me feel almost re energized. It was the best feeling I’ve had in a few days.

Picked up a few hours of work today and tomorrow…so much for a day  off but I have nothing better to do then work ya know. I need the money anyways and I’ll take as many as I can possibly get. I need these fines paid off so I have the extra money for therapy and my name change.

I’m really excited to perform on Sunday. I hope it goes well. I hope I can find someone to record both performances. It’s been my first performance in months. Hope I don’t fuck it up. I excited to see ricky. We started a collab channel on youtube, him, evan, and I. The first week of Feb. Reminds me I need to make up a new video for my personal channel. I’m so effin lazy hahaha.

Other then that I’m kinda of just ok. I have my good hours and my bad. Im making it through.

D.j