Nvr thought We’d cross pathes

So I guess I have a little bit of time to write and..what not.

So tomorrow night I’m going to bounce/union to do open mic, and I think the song is going to be pretty good, If X learns all his words and shit…Regaurdless I’m going to hold down my end and not look like an idiot. There’s not much I can do with the song but I’ll make it work since I never got the choreo done for ‘Dueces’.At midnight I turn 21 and can drink, so I have decided I guess to kind of have my party there. I have pretty much invited everyone there to celebrate my birthday so i can have my actually birthday to me and my woman and we can chill have a few drinks and jsut really enjoy it ya know? I’m not really up for bar hoping for my birthday, I kind of think I’m way over the stage of my life. I’m till real scared it could turn real ugly…but i wont say why i think that..and just wait til after then get into it. I really dont want to jinx myself.

I think I have decided to go back to work at the diner, jsut for some kind of cash flow, and living at my moms I wont hve o pay any bills. So I can just pay for my script, and save everything else, since the weekend after my birthday I am no longer smoking weed. Now just because I am going to work at the diner does not mean I am not still looking for a job out on this side of town (willoughby) because as soon as a better oppertunity arrives I’m leaving, and I’m letting Dale be aware of that when I come back to work, or what ever the case may be. Just right now I’m not getting any were with my personal life and it’s really begining to take a tole on myself and my relationship. So maybe a litle bit of space so Sara and I can actually miss each other and get sometime to really focus on what we want for ourselves and work the other into it. So we ahve time to concentrate on getting everything back "in order" for were we want our lives to be. Me not being happy were I am is just adding to my own problems and hers and kinda of think its the best. I mean it isnt like I’m never going to see her, a will take a few hours a night over nothing. PLus I can always spend the night when I have days off or what not. Though I’m hoping that there arnt to many of those. Possibly if hes working me enough and getting paid every week will benefit me the way IT SHOULD! so that I can buy a car in a short amount of time after being back to work so that things can jsut be that much simplier. I have plenty of poeple that have come to me with cars I can afford and are pretty nice I have put the word out there firm Of what i need and am looking for and know when I actually have the money asking around and looking will mean a little more and  not be just a waste of time.

The scratch mark(s) on my back iches like amouther fucker nd hurts real real bad.

Oh ahahah here’s a funny story for you o.d So we all know how I was dating alyda, tiff was in fl dating ashley, nd now ashlys back was dating someone, alyda nd I broke up nd now there dating right…ok so…keep all that in mind well i explain this real kinda weird quinkie dink story.

So Sat night Shy has asked me if I was going to go out and what not. I said no because I really wasnt feeling up to it, and didn’t know id sara would want to. Any who one the way back from julianns Lets celebrate I’m a veggie eater dinner, sara said something bout going out with brooke to bounce because she has asked, Brooke wanted to see her big tittied bitch. Or what not. So anywho we went ot and we ere all having agood time i saw shy and kicked it for a min. We went outside to smoke a cigg nd there was liek real sexy as fucking bitch standin nxt to me and sara she was ust walkin on her phone er what ever when we walked passed. She was rea class done up right ok…like nd I told her I really liekd her shoes..nd it was done.. Later on in the club shy was talking to this girl that i had told her her shoes were real nice, and shes was like thats my sexy somethign or another. I was like you know her? Shy goes yea thats my leah. AHAHAHAHHAHA ok…thats not whats funny. But ne ways I said hi to her and what not then found her on facebook and chatting it up shes got amazing pics there fabulous. I invited her to come out nd have a few drinks with my for my birthday..just good ppls for a good time you know. Then it kinda all clicked on who she really was..Leah is the girl that Ashley was dating when she came back from ohio before she started dating alyda. I bout shit myself when all this was clickin to my last night/yesterday when we were chatting online. Kinda insane if u ask me. Shes cool as fuck tho, I mean Sam R, said she was and hes a good dude so yea. I just thought that was funny how her and I managed to cross paths.

—everytime i’m sitting at this computer and im trying to be quiet bc there sleeping down the hall I always knock the mouse off the lil keyboard holder thing. shitty–

k well I’m done now later!

D.j