Just a quick fix..plz?

At this moment in time I am really at a loss of words, thoughts or emotions for that matter. I really don’t know at this point if I should stay living here or move out. I can’t take fighting with Sara any more. I have absolutely had enough. I have told her tiem and time again about this fishy things she does and how uncomfortable and untrusworthy it makes her look. She keeps saying nothing is going on, but when I comfront her upon thing sshe jsut looks at me like I’m stupid for a good period of time not saying anything. It pisses me off like I asked you a question just answer it, what is it you have to think about? Then by time I walk away she has something to say about it, and its always something. Some sort of excuse of why, ut never answers my question. The always turns it around on somethign I had done wrong days before or soemthing she read in my facebook messges, that really sint big deals. Ok so I messaged Alyda, to tell her that I’m legally male as I promised to always keep her informed no matter our relationship status. So I did, I called her to ask her when she wanted her shit back, granite it was a little late and night but what ever thats just how I function. Literally that was it hardly even how are yours or what you been up to are added. She got mad because I said Kenz was fuckable, yes i did say that but like the rest of the message said that AFTER SOMEONE asked me why I havent hit it i said yes shes fuckable but like family. Kenz is an amazingly beautiful girl dont get me wrong, but thats be like insest. Gross. So she got mad SO WHAT IM A MAN. She breaks her neck when weere out looking at ppl nd shit nd i never so much as glance at a woman that isnt her but the one time i say something its omfg have a god damn heart attack! I’m tired of feeling like she enjoy wrk more then being home with me. Like I’m some sort of difficult person, or that I stress her out so much. She doesn kiss me like she used to, we barely have sex or even get close ne more. Shes always yelling at me or pissed about something, and i ask but she enver tells. Like so much for tryingt o be better at communication. I have ran an extra mile to explain to her how I feel about everything and she cant even give me a little. Like why dont you fucking ‘love’ me anymore, or touch me any more, just sit and lookat me like she used to? What happened to her hoensty and im everything. I feel like I am nothing but a burden a bother, and stress. I just want to feel loved and wanted, for someone to be interested in what I’m saying thinking, going through, whats going o nwith me and  my friends, or listen to my gossip aobut my friends like i do theirs. I get pissed off and rant and rave and become a royal cock when shes snappy and fishy, or says stupid shit. Thats a human reaction anyones going to get mad, half the time I’m getting mad because she never talks about things shes feeling and jsut lets it go. She makes me feel like shes hiding something I just dont know what. its so fucking rediculous I cant even take it ne more. I want to cry but cant, I’m emotionally drained. The only type of feeling i get is the fact of wanting sex, a quick fix of intamacy, passion and love…since my life seems to be lacking it. It’s all I’m craving, its all I can think about, honest to god love, not so alone and unappreciated, unloved, unwanted..

if this fails I’m leaving state, and I’m taking A.j with me.

D.j