It’s a million degrees outside.

So I slept in and never woke up to call work and see if they wanted me to come in. I mean working they way that I have been getting the little sleep that I have been I can’t really to mad at myselfbecause theres only so much a human body can take and i have been taking alot lately. Bridgette(baby mama) Picked me up and took my to get my check from work. wasn’t much but just starting this job and having to take those 2 days because of my back so i mean it was alot more then I had been expecting.

It’s so hot outside it’s insane and I have just been walking around from place to palce like I aint got no sense.

Apperently Sara got her nipples pierced with out me..kinda makes me mad ya kno im not there well some dude neither of us know is fondling and scoping out my bitches tit’s. Enrages me a little. It’s what ever i really don’t even care if thats whats it gunna be then thats what it’s gunna be..imma let some bitch pierce my dick when she aint round. I just wanna be apart of things in her life nd sometimes I feel like I’m not.

I still can’t get Nos out of my head. I just feel like I’m coming to closure after soooo long and a have a few questions er thjoughts un answered nd its killing me. Or maybe it isnt closure that I’m looking for…hence that being one of my un answered questions. Going with the flow…but im starting to think this flow is a little two slow.

Interesting enough I have started writing alot more…not complete poems stories or anything just small stanza’s er what not you wann call em. I mean its a step sicne I do write so fucking amazingly and just closed myself off and locked that all away. I’m glad I found my insperation again…idnt know how or what it was but I got it.

Now off to find something to do while they go to soft ball..srry but its not my thing to sit in the burning sun boiling to watch it…being to hot s makes me cranky nd i cant smoke with the fam around because of the kids. I’m going to have to make it a point to travel out this way more I miss my fam…ALOT.

Going to be making a new video for youtube soon..to get a little more indetyail of my emotions on all of this instead of the steps…i think they need a little more insight of exactly how I’m feeling..so ill have to turn it from a video to a written entry for everyone… or write an entry and turn it into a video…or just post the video…k well.. later!

D.j