heart breakingly Numb
Alyda and I arnt together anymore.
I moved in with cassie thursday.
I have done nothing but smoke drink and work myself numb.
If someone else says "omfg i thought you guys were meant for each other..dont worry things will work them selves out and ya’ll will get back together"..im honestly going to bring out a shot gun. It’s aggravating, it hurts so STOP DOING IT! im visibly HEART BROKEN here…
I sleep in 20 minute intervuls…and for the 2 hours inbetween im awake i just lay here staring at the ceiling. I suppose tomorrow I’m going to try and clean out the bedroom and get my room set up. To tlk bout setting up my own room with out her drives me insane. Going from waking up and falling sleep everynight with someone to being alone…kinda consumes you in loneliness.
I miss her. I love her. things just arn’t the same with out here….It’s like theres a huge void in my life. Thigns just arnt right with out her. Idk how to explain it.
money money money…all i got to keep my mind on for now. help distract me. sorry but thats all i got..i barely have my own thoughts to think that arn’t just me sobbing and wishing things could be different.
Is it stubborn of me to still think we will get back together and everything will work out? That she belongs with me…
D.j
It’s way too early to think ANYTHING besides hoping that things will work out again. Break-ups are hell. Period. Let yourself feel the pain. It’s the only way to heal. And if that doesn’t work… Go get in a bar fight. They’re fun. 😉 {{{{{HUGS}}}}}
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I’m sorry pal…if you need anything let me know
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I have been where you are over a woman. In fact, I was about 21 the first time and 26 the second time. You’d think I’d learn. It is a very dark place. I’m here if you want to talk.
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