Happy new year!

Today is new years eve. Finally 2009 is fucking over with.

I can’t wait to make 2010 exactly what I want it to be. I feel like an unstoppable force ready to crush anything that gets in my way. I have so much I want to get done this year, and yes i know I know, baby steps, you can’t just leap into things and expect them to be exactly what you want. Working out all the kinks while taking small steps makes it perfect. I’m the farthest person from patient, and pulling patients out of my ass is very hard.

Work has been ok, it has it ups and downs with some of the people I work with. Some get under my skin and make it crawl and others are cool as fuck. I’m going to turn in this app for dunkin donuts, at circle k prob after the new years, or maybe today…if I ever decide to get dressed. ( I have boycotted clothes since I got off work last night) It feels nice to be free. I suppose to enjoyed walking around with my shirt off entirely to much. Kinda of makes me wish Erin wasnt here so I could do it again…..So random but the speakers connect to alydas computer just llike…..hissed/screetched…made some sorta very odd noise…and her computers turned off….*gulps* Yea…..

I havve finally been loosing the weight that I have put on in the past 2 months, pound by pound, not by doing anything in particular just, working and moving around. I want to get the iron gym for the closest  so I can get back into my old routine of working out, before I got sick and lazy. I was doing sooooo good and my arms were getting bigger my stomach more define and everything. So I suppose you sould say my new years resolution is to start taking better care of my self, get my ass back into shape, and not let ANYONE get in my way of getting my life back together, so by 2011 I’ll be set and can work on schooling and so forth…which reminds me ….transcripts…monday er nxt week no excuses, I wont need alyda to pay the fee by then so I can just take the car and go get em.

I’m glad to have today and tomorrow off. God did I need it, such tiring work. Hopfully by this week coming up they’ll leave me alone and let me run the grill my self..I’m kinda tired of  Isai fucking shit up for me. He’s so arrogant and arrogance and arrogance just dont work together, and umm..I’m tired of being the nice shy, timid, brush it off kinda guy, because if we all know me I’m only like that for so long, just enough time to sit back and watch.

Alyda’s working tonight, makes me sad but she does need the money, I just hope she isn’t on a deal around 12….that would just bring this new year in horribly. I’d kinda of like this one to be memoriable since I dont remember shit bout last year but Tiff dragging me away from dancing with Val into Union for the ball to drop. Thats it I dont remember anything else..

I think tonight Brooke and i are going to Cassies, god only knows who else is going to be there, might see whats up with tovey and see if she wats to come out and kick it for the night.

But I really need coffee, and I’m fighting the urge to writr about this nightmare I had th other night. I would but I want it to be provet,and not exactly sure how to write it and explain it so it make sense. Regardless if I write it, say it, or thinking about it, it doesnt make sense and it makes me sick every time. I guess my nerves of getting in contacted with a therapist and getting to excited and eager to start T, and so forth. It’s driving me insane, I’m entirely to excited, scared, confused, happy, idk what I am im just a bunch of emotions all rolled into one.

Oh and Alyda did the cutest things, and made me a little box with a little thing taped on the top that says "top fund" i put all my tips and shit in it when I get out of work. How fucking cute is that!

D.j