AndI cave as easily as the twin towers

So I started this new delivery job, and honestly I love it. I make great tips and it’s less stressful. I can just chill not worry bout anyone fucking shit up but me. I have made enough to pay for my speeding ticket by wednsday, so that everything else can go to a new car. A friend of mine informed me of away to get my script of T for like 50 bucks instead of paying a hundred plus for it because I have no insurance.

I had wrote my Autobiography for therapy but it turned out to be 5 pages long instead of a page and a half because i kind of just let shit flow while I was writing and just go from there. I think I have the finaly copy. I’m going to have sara go over it, then type it and print it and take it in on friday when I go for my psyc eval. Them it’s on to the team meeting.

The past few night with Sara have been great. Just got me thinking bout we’re my life is headed and what I’m going to do in december when she leave for Akron. Weather I’m going or getting a place with my sister. I find my self very afraid of living with apartner again. I’m not sure I’m ready for that just yet. I mean I practically live with her not, but there’s a large difference between staying with someone and LIVING with someone. I think that I am doing just fine getting things together in the fashion that I am, and I’m not sure either of us are ready for that matter. So separate living arrangements is what I’m looking at as of this moment. Something Close out there or maybe just in akron, or something I’m not sure. All I know is what is ment to happen will happen, I can’t look that far ahead I have to worry about other things before I start trying to make plans for something I have no business doing so when I barely have myself together. That’s not stated I don’t want to be with her or make something of it, I’m just letting things flow and build themselves they way that their suppose to.

I find myself distracted by something lately. I can’t quite figure it out, but I feel like it’s eating away at me. I wish I just had some idea to what it is.

Random

"I have an image in my head I can’t seems to erase, the way her eye’s brightened as I held her a pitter patter of love you might say,

Every moment I’m alone I become delusional, believe I see her face, appears again look up into her eye’s and the smile begins fade,

A lonely man broken and tattered driven insane, to proud to end his reign, Torn and scar’d warrior for his heart defending against "blood" drained,

A man afraid of this mysterious flower, shes consumed me, my hearts shes devoured,

 To fall beneath my feet, my walls have coward smallest breezy and I cave as easily as the twin towers"

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People make things more then they really are. I wish people would get over shit and realize i don’t care and i really did nothing more then quit talking to the people who were talking shit about me…sooo how am I the one who as done nothing wrong. I do atmit I did’nt make many situations better but i did nothing but speak the truth and my personal opinions about any one at any point in time, and please no one take offfense this is not directed towards and one person or about any one situation thanks 🙂 I have no been complete nice I have been an asshole but damn it who isn’t an asshole when there pissed or or hurt…come on now I’m half human lol. idk going to eat my 6th piece of pizza….

umm….think that’s it for now…imma enjoy the rest of my night off since I have towork both jobs tomorrow and probaly the rest of the week.

-D.j