karma police.

1. dear february,

you are taking far too long to pass for my liking. please pick up your pace. just because you are the shortest month does not mean you are inadequate.

love,
me.

2. i have begun a novel, or rather a line, that speaks of addictions and the circular patterns we make on the earth. maybe it has been done before and i am not sure if i will even finish it but my heart is raw and it wants my words to match it.

3. i finally dyed my hair. it is black and pink and it sits just below my chin. the girl asked me how i wanted my hair. i said two words. “messy. turbulant.” she did a good job. i wonder if she really understood what i meant or if she’s just good at reading people’s minds.

4. we have decided that we will have a small wedding and we will save and blow all our money on a honeymoon to france. (elza, be ready.) we will get married in a local theatre and i will ask my friends to be roving performers maybe.

5. i still wonder how he can love me so unconditionally that he automatically accepts all of my faults and my mood swings and my scars. i wonder how he can find me so attractive that when i ask him “if i was allowed as many plastic surgery procedures as i wanted, what would you want me to get done?” that he replies with “nothing.” sometimes i still believe that i am dreaming. that this is some sort of revenge waiting to happen because i lost faith in everything a long time ago. or maybe because i never had it.

6. you once called me your mona lisa. and now i don’t know what you meant by it. tell me.

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February 25, 2006

i want february to hurry up as well,so badly.and i really want to dye my hair.bleach it maybe.yours sounds wonderful.and the theatre:what a wonderful place to get married!where are you planning to go to france?xxx

February 25, 2006

Mona lisa? Yes, you should inquire into that, right away.

February 25, 2006

oh gosh. getting married in a theatre sounds absolutely amazing. i = jealous.january and december always go so quickly, but the intervening months seems to be interminable.laura.

February 25, 2006

best of luck and much love.

February 25, 2006

aw, those first few lines were too cute. heh. i want March=spring. Oh, March where are you?

February 26, 2006

that sounds absolutely amazing. Good luck on your novel i can’t wait to read it. <3

February 26, 2006

you make me die, i am so jealous of your words and fortune.

beautiful. you’re as good as incongruent. diane

they say that “you like someone for their good qualities, but you love them for their bad ones.” don’t question the love, just accept it.

#2: I want to read this with careful examination. The topic is intriguing by nature, but with you writing about it, it is sure to be exceptional. #4: That sounds wonderful. I wish you the best of times. #5: Write that down to look at five, ten, fifteen years from now. You deserve nothing less.

maybe love is the inability to understand the beauty or love of someone else. so perhaps when you say you don’t understand what you really mean is i love you.

February 27, 2006

I would think that it’d be easy to fall for a girl like you. But that’s just me.

March 1, 2006

that is exactly how i pictured your weddingi just hadn’t imagined it yet *smile*in other words = that is so you, my dear.it’ll be amazing.you hair sounds gorgeous.thankyou for your note, compliments from you seem to resonate louder for me. xo

March 3, 2006
March 3, 2006

I love those wedding conversations.We’re doing something similar; small, special & intimate.xxxx

RYN: accepting love is one of the world’s largest troubles so it seems. kick on kickin and it’ll work out.

March 4, 2006

nag champa is the best. sandalwood….right after it.

March 5, 2006

February’s over. In case you’re curious.

March 6, 2006

I just recently read something on February being the shortest month, going by days, but it drags out the longest. I just want it to warm up all ready.I thought of doing mine a mess of purple, fuscia and pink because it’s so unlike me, but apparently pink is harder to get out than red and I’m not ready for that.I only have one scar from myself. I accidentally stabbed myself in the thumb.

March 6, 2006

Unless you want to include the ones from falling, acne, fights and scratching when I had the pox of the chicken. That’s an awful illness.I showed my friend Ashley the scars from Eric on my back and sides and she just pulled my shirt back down and shook her head.

March 6, 2006

Ohh. So happy. I wish I could go to your wedding. I hope it is wonderful. Maybe you can come to mine in a few years. You’ll have to send me your new address if/when you have it? I hope all is well.

March 8, 2006

March is here!*Dances.*ryn; thanks. I can’t waitto find out what it is!!!xo;

March 11, 2006

honeymooooners! eeek! i cant wait! Im taking you guys to spain then for hot weather and wine drunkeries at the beach. You are perfect the way you are, perfection is pretty, flaws are beautiful.