dial tone.

May 22, 2006

fugue [edited]

1. i have two/three weeks left of university before i am finished forever and must venture out into the world to find myself a real job. i am scared. but right now, i am too busy to take notice of that fact.
2. along with the four assessment pieces i still have left i am: working four-five days a week, co-ordinating a theatre festival, operating lighting for another theatre show, organising reviewiers for local shows, trying to get my photographic exhibition together and attending so many 21sts it is making my head spin.
3. currently the boy and i manage to see each other for a total of an hour or two a day, exluding the time we are sleeping. we both have wednesday off completely, so i am putting everything else on hold and we are going to do something nice. together.
4. i am writing again. and god does it feel good:

she sits on the shore
water tugging like a leash at her skirt
(white and torn from too many stones)
fingers like chickenbones pull
at strands of hair
(black and twisted like rope)
harshly.

this absent-minded symphony she plays out
on water and rock looses emotion
in the deep folds of her skirt
(we are lost here, remembering)
she dreams of colour
distant and dusty

i would follow her everywhere
(would tangle my hands in her)
if only for a glimpse of the poetry
she leaves on ruined napkins
around the countryside

(i am sure a glimpse of God must exist there)

5. i apologise for not being around. soon, i promise.

p.s. as of this month i have been at opendiary for six years. i have lost most of my entries, but i’m still here. hoorah.

3,2,1

Oh gosh! I’ll be where you are in two years with university, and I’m scared already. I hope you’re okay! I love that poem. i like the brackets, it’s a little unusual and it really works. x

meadowlark.

i knew you would never truly lose your muse.beauty is in you, love.xx.

shrapnel is shrapnel

i miss you, kim.laura

Trine.

And your writing hasn’t gone down one single notch when it comes to its excellence. I really do adore the way you write.RYN; Thanks. I’m glad I have him too. Love,

lost in midnovember/

i love love love this poem.

SpectaKula

RYN: Wow, that’s pretty unusual to get a good shot of the 2 of us. Normally at least one of us looks like a tool lol. You’ll have to show me, I have virtually no pictures of us for the above reason! I can’t believe it’s so soon that you finish uni! I’m so proud of you! Seems like only yesterday you were still deciding what you wanted to do at uni! We must catch up soon, OD is weird without you xox

Luci

May 23, 2006

if it, isn't her.

i remember your olds poetry.i bet i could find them onnapkins somwhere.it feels good to read your words againyou can always pull at my heart strings.so don’t stop nowex&oh.

sunflower dyslexia

::♥

MDLN

that last fucking stanza is enough to make one scream. i love it, beauty.i look forward to you being around, but with all that going on, one could understand why you arent. you crazy girl. good luck! and much love, as always

timshel

Wow. That’s a long time.Missed you!xo;

ryn; thanks.I’m sort of gladthat it’s a girl.a boy would have been fine, however.girls seem more fun to dress.xo;

she's gorgeous

woah 6 years on O.D damnn girl. I’m happy 4 you. You & the boy sound so cute. Go spend some lovely time with him! && enjoy it! xx

anorexorcist

beautiful poem. i hope my words return someday. xxx;;

i begin.

May 24, 2006

yeah,i miss france.i’m really glad that you’re writing again.i’ll read more once i get back,promise.xxx

lingeringbutterfly

the poem is lovely. especially the part about poetry on ruined napkins. I’m a 5 year OD addict. but I too have lost most of myself along the way, mostly by diary hopping and hiding. but really, love the words. truly enjoyed.

if god can be found anywhere, i am sure it is in discarded poetry. i am glad you feel better from being able to write again. xo;

mr. goth glam

I love that poem. Good to know you’re heading out soon. Must be nice.

I really enjoyed that poem, good luck with graduating!

May 26, 2006

ryn// Are you from england? if so me too. I’m kind of glad we don’t have baseball because I prefer cricket…but it was such a fun experience all the same! x

said katherine.

You’re offly lovely. good luck with the real world! i’ll be there soon myself… and oh yes. the glass costs more than the bottle. best, xx

charlatan thrust

ryn; there’s the possibilityof recovery for all of us…we just don’t take it and i don’t know why.

postsecret = =D nothing ever turns out as planned heh. i think that’s what makes life mysterious. but it was still enjoyable so i say it was worth it 🙂 six years..woah.

gutterflower.

May 27, 2006

six years is a long time. ive been here awhile, but not quite that long.

I accept your apology. Heh.

regret.

May 30, 2006

take care.

two a.m.

May 31, 2006

June 3, 2006

you gonna throw us an update sometime? heh.

Qian Fu

June 4, 2006

Oh thats so crisp and vivid..wb

-vampire.kiss-

June 5, 2006

i’m fine darling, I havent written. to you. or anyone. I’ve just been so.. busy. I’ve finished uni, and now am getting ready to graduate. Then i’m travelling around the world.. starting in europe, then africa, then asia, then australia (yay!), then new zealand, then fiji.. then back to vancouver, then south america. so so so busy. xxx