Cash and the eternal struggle
So I finally got paid for my first week’s phoning work, but by cheque, and its really not very much. I think it will all just go straight back out again on bills. Then I will have no money again. Gah! Im so fed up of having no money! I want to enjoy my last few months of being a student, but I desperately need money, and I am now looking forward to even temping again, just because I can buy a sandwich and not worry if my account will be overdrawn just because I dared to buy a single cinema ticket. That was a really long sentence.
A few of my favourites on OD have been apologising for not writing so much recently, and I have to say there is some definite melancholy in the air. I have a good life, my health, a roof over my head (just about – but I know for a fact i cant pay next months rent yet). I just seem to be a bit depressed. It makes me worry when I take any and all opportunities to get drunk and forget for a bit, and feel better until the next day when I sober up. (I dont spend money on the booze, I cook so people feel obliged to buy wine/beer – see Im a clever alcohol abuser…)
I’m even doing alright at uni too – I got 90-95% in my last essay. Okay Im showing off, Im doing really well, but I should be happy not just “ah…. didn’t fail…” I think my appearance is getting me down too. Ive never been slim, and today I’m not what you’d call fat, I dont need extra large wasit sizes and stuff, but I could really lose a few stone, and I would love some new clothes because I cant keep wearing the same two jeans over and over, but that brings me back to money…
Bless JDG though, because she decided to cheer me up by trying to teach me how to play Gin Rummy, with Gin!
Must finish the self-pity wallow, I have a test on Wednesday and I have to study.
Yeah, you can definitely taste the difference between the Glen’s and the Grant’s at one end and the Finlandia and Stoli at the other! Sorry to hear you’re feeling down. I must say, however, that noone I know has ever received a mark as high as 90% in any piece of work they did. Maybe it’s a different marking system, but it sure is something to be proud of! 🙂
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You changed your name! I got confused :S Sparkling vodka? Really? I have never heard of such a thing. I spend far too much time thinking about that drink. Right now I’m actually drinking some, so I feel a bit more normal. Tell me, I should know this I guess, but what is your (real) name? x
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And from your description in a randomly-read previous entry… do you live in St. Andrews? Are you a student there? Sorry for basic questions, but I’m slow 🙂 x
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Ah… I thought afterwards that Edinburgh would have fitted the bill just as well. So, what do you study exactly (again, sorry if that should be obvious!) I’ve not heard from him, so it’s not a problem. My attitude has always been that it’s not my problem if someone I pull is cheating – that’s between him and his bf. Might as well enjoy the opportunity to pull someone nice! How’s it going? x
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