catch up

its been a tough year and a half.  my last post hubby had just been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer that had spread all over his body.  we live in a small area that doesnt have very good treatments for cancer so we had to move back to ohio where we stayed with his daughter for 4 months.  the dr said if we had waited  just a few more weeks, he would have been too far gone.  well he is still here, still very very sick, but still here.  so im glad about that.  we moved back right before christmas last year.  that 4 months was a very difficult time. i didnt realize how co-dependent i was on hubby.  he took care of most everything and i had to learn how to deal with everything, learning how to deal with his cancer, learning how to deal with living with his daughter, who actively worked against me at every turn.  learning how to take care of him and his handicapped brother while watching hubby suffer and being in so much pain.  not being able to even go to the bathroom by himself, and constantly in and out of the hospital.  in january our house in ky burned, and we all got covid.

hubby was touch and go and still is.  last spring hubby was strong enough that we were able to move back to ky.  we had a trailer/house that we owned and had been using for storage etc.  so we were very blessed to have had a place to go. it was in pretty rough shape, and still is. but this past year we have be able to get a lot done toward making it a home.  about august of last year hubby took a turn for the worse, so we stopped his treatments.  we had been driving the 3 hours back to ohio every month for his treatments.  he started losing weight, couldnt hold his feed down, was so weak etc.  we had to have a peg tube put in his belly so he could eat last february.  so we have had to feed him a formula type feed through his belly.  he couldnt swallow and most of his pills we have to put through his tube as well.

the treatments were working and his cancer got to a place where he wasnt considered critical anymore, but the treatment was very hard on his body.  about august last year he started losing weight again.  its been one thing after another.  we have great in home care, and they were trying so hard to figure out how best to help him.  so lots of testing was going on. then last month we took him back to the cancer dr for scans to see how things were going.  his cancer had stayed small enough that chemo would have done more damage than good. but he had tumors on both adrenals that had tripled in size and a spot about the size of a grape had showed up on his brain.  so back to ohio for a week to get radiation treatments.  he is some better and seems to me like he is slowly getting stronger.  we go back to ohio early may for more scans to see if the radiation worked.