7/29/05

Would it be very impolite to write a survey entry after being gone so long? I wanted to write a real entry but i forgot what I wanted to say.
I’ll shortly update this: i’ve come to terms with the big "job decision" trauma. But now I have  new trauma – my actual job. I have to become a real news reporter. Make people tell me stuff that’s secret – can I really do that? I’m always all "well, if you don’t want to tell me i’m not going to make you". I like to be a nice person, you know? It doesn’t really go well with this job.
For now, i;m just beginning to sort out who the hell I should be talking to. It’s a scary pile pf paperwork. I’m going to slave. Help.
But before that – I’m going to Ireland! For a week – too short, but still longer that any vacation I had in the last 2 years. Has anyone ever been? I would appreciate any comments. I’m especially debating wether to make the trip to Belfast. It’s a day, and people told me it’s not a pretty city. But i feel it’s quite important, especially considering the analogies between their situation and ours. I think I would feel that I missed on an important experience if I missed it, though everyone else says i’m wrong.
On the Nir front – we seem to be a bit less romantic lately. Does that happen to everyone? Well, I know it doesn’t. Nir has a couple of friends who are still sooooo in love after 2-3 years together, and I know some favourites who feel that way too. But as I always tell my friends who moan that other couples are happer than they are – you never know what’s really going on inside, and different things are good for different people. But when you’re finding it hard to find the right moment to say "I love you" and instead you say "so what did you want me to get from the hardware store", it smells like danger. I do love him and I enjoy his company but i think we’re getting into the "old married couple" mode too early. Maybe this trip will shake us up.
Carrot said she thinks we’ll be married in a year. I tend to agree, but i’m not always sure. Not as sure as I was when we just moved in together.
He likes to listen to really loud music and play computer games with his computer connected to the LOUD streo system. Any other girl would just kick him out. I went and got noise-ccancelling headphones. He should really appreciate it! I wonder if he does.

I’m drained from writing, for some reason. let’s do the survey.

1. ten years ago:
August 1995. I was in the army. Not a very exciting time. It really felt just like a regular job, except that it was my first one and that I lived there. it was my first brush with angry bosses and collegues you just can’t ignore or get away from no mather how much they bug you. Rude awakening to adult life.

2. five years ago:
August 2000. I was with Daniel, round two, after the breakup from Odie.
The second round with Daniel had two parts – the first non-commited one, which was pretty frustrating, and the second part which was a lot nicer but also scary, because I knew it couldn’t last. But the sex was great and so were the conversations.
Just checked my diary to see exactly what went on. Turns out that the second part was in August and September.

3. one year ago:
I had just broken up with Jonathan and moved to my new house – my first really pretty house that really fealt like home. (Ironic that I spent under a year in it). In August I learned that Jonathan and his roommate were a couple and that basically she had been the one who broke us up. I was pretty shocked but I think I was also kind of happy with my life. Work was very easy and rewarding and me and Giraffe were both single and really living up the city.

4. yesterday:
Long hard day at work. Went to meet people frm my old job – I looooove them. There’s this one woman there who reminds me of my mother and though I know her less well, I think we developed this special connection. She’s unemployed now and i hope i can help her find a job. I was weirded out, though, buy recognizing that the fact that she reminded me of my mother was what mostly made me want to be friends with her. Is that weird?

5. today:
Got up early, read a bit about Ireland. Nir left early to buy his mom a video camera – that woman is never happy. He bought her exactly what she said she wanted but she said it was too heavy… but would’t return it. Why? Anyway, as usual I got delayed going to visit my parents at Haifa. Instead of 10 I think i left at 13:00. Visited my friend Biscuit on the way – he and Nir don’t get along so I try to meet him seperately. We had a quite interesting conversation but then he really wanted to talk about his start-up company. Ow, my poor brain – I really should not be helping with business plans for start ups on the weekend, since i do that too much at work….

6. tomorrow:
Lazy day at home. Hope i drag myslef to go on a walk. Probably watch some TV. Packing in the evening.

7. five snacks i enjoy:
You mean without guilt? None… Well – Energy apple-almond (it’s a cereal snack), And "Mekupelet", because it’s mostly air and although made of cocolate, has only 100 calories!

8. five bands/singers to whose songs i know most of the lyrics:
Guns and Roses, Alice in Chains, Queen, Hole – I would say Nirvana but no one rally knows their lyrics..

9. five things i would do w/ a million dollars:
Savings account for a house, Svaings account for a child, Visit Denise in Canada, Go to Russia. Get a cleaning lady.

10. five tv shows:
Party of 5, Southpark (geniuses!), MTV the real world (first 3 seasons, when it was this uber-cool new social experiment), Degrassi (don’t laugh), and I still miss LA Law.

11. five movies:
Oy. I can;t really choose. My own Private Idaho, The Hours, Fight Club, Alice in Wonderland, Sammy and Rosie get Laid.