7/13/04

Time: 17:46 (I’m a little busier at work these days)

Mood: OK

Boy: None

Writing About: Public Transportation

Nice thing that happened: Violet is leaving for a 3 month vacation. I can’t wait! she’s kind of getting on my nerves.

Interesting thing that happened: I was at this grocery store and i noticed everyone was looking at me weird. It took me a while before i figured what it was – i was holding a stuffed pear – not food but a stuffed animal shaped like a pear. That’s because ever since i was a kid, i’ve been collecting fruit and vegetable shaped stuffed animals. I got a carrot for my 5th birthday and it just went on from there. Everyone who saw stuffed-animal-food bought it for me. So when i saw the pear at the grocery sotre for 20 NIS (5 dollars or so), I had to get it! A stuffed pear is rare! But here I was, with a muffin and some yoghurt, clutching the stuffed animal in the other hand like a little kid. I could see people thinking – she’s not a kid, she’s not a teenager, she’s not a mother… so what’s her problem? With the muffin and the stuffed pear I looked like an aging 5 year old…. I love that stuffed pear, though. It’s in my car still and i kept looking at it this morning as I was driving. So cute…

Daily philosophical approach / deep thought: Ummm… how should I phrase this. Okay: there’s this famous singer in Israel called Sarit Hadad. She came from a small town and she’s supposed to be a very regular girl from a regular family, and she’s especially popular among an audience that is not very liberal or educated. She kind of symbolizes for every little girl in a faraway provincial town, that it’s possiblr even for them to make it in the big city, and it seemed like Sarit Hadad had no problem playing the part of the girl who fulfills everyone else’s dreams. <BR> BUT lately  Hadad has been acting out a bit, not playing the part, and she even has a new song, that, very untypically, talks very cynically about marriage and the way society sells it to little girls – something that I, from a totally different background, can really identify with. Anyway, it seems like Sarit Hadad is a lesbian, which makes it a big hard for her to keep playing the part of Regular Girl. It’s not like if Britnety Spears was a lesbian – more like if some Christian Rock singer was. When I hear her new song I can really feel her dilema – if she’s a lesbian, she’s not a good girl anymore, and now she can think for her self in other areas too. And her fans – now they have a problem. They found theselves liking a lesbian. What do they do now? Sarit Hadad – good, lesbians – bad – how do we now rearange the toughts to fit the pattrern?<br>My “deep” point is this – peopl don’t really want to be outsiders in their society. Being an outsider is many a time something biologically determined (even shyness has been found to have a biological origin). If there were no deformities or weirdnesses, there wouldn’t be any outsiders, and therefore there would be no rebels, and society would be froen and stagnatic, never taking serious mental leaps forward or adating to changes in the world. <br> so it seems that in the end, genetic engineering will be what wipes humanity out of this world, because it will change humanity’s unique talent at changing and adapting to change.