stolen from sarah

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:

1. You are now one of my best friends and you need to accept that it’s all it will ever be, now. You have made me a better person but also one who doesn’t need you and one who knows she doesn’t have to settle anymore. True happiness is possible for me and I only hope you find it, as I believe I truly have.

2. I am now willing to admit to everyone, including myself, that losing you was the single most prolific event in my life. I hate that you aren’t here. I hate that you haven’t been here to help me through so many rough times. I hate not being able to drive to Maryland for the weekend and spend time with you on the farm. I hate that the world doesn’t know how much it lost the day you passed. I can only hope that I make you proud.

3. I will never understand why you lie the way you do. I love you because you are a great person and a great friend, but there is no need to hide who you are or what you are feeling or even who you are dating. True friends will accept you no matter what, you don’t need to make things up for us.

4. You are one of my favorite people in the entire world. You are bright, determined, beautiful, genuine and charming and I’m lucky to call you a friend. And an old slut. You give the best smackdown pep talks ever.

5. You had me at hello, you complete me, I love you man, etc. Every time I see you it’s an adventure and I love every minute of it. You are fun, silly, dorky, intelligent, adorable, sexy, kind, soft hearted and everything I have EVER hoped I’d be lucky enough to find. Fred is pretty hot too. And you’re afraid of centipedes too, I am pretty sure that this alone makes you my soulmate!

6. You need to leave now and get out while you can. You deserve better but more importantly, your children deserve better. You need to see that before you’ve wasted anymore of your life with a man who will never love you or them the way you want him to do. Aside from that, no one will ever get me the way you do and that’s awesome considering how long we hated each other.

7. I only hope I can make (both of) you proud.

8. You are my closest guy friend and I miss you like crazy! Move back to Ohio. Now.

9. I admire you completely for the way you have devoted your life to the cause and for the ways you help so many without the blink of an eye. You’ve sacrificed enormously and I couldn’t have any more respect for you.

10. You have finally realized that no one else could love you if you didn’t love yourself first. You’ve started to forgive yourself for your mistakes and learned to control your jealousy and anger. I am proud of you for that, but don’t think the battle is won. Keep going. You are strong and can only be held down by your own inhibitions.

Nine Things About Myself:

1. I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for.

2. I feel naked without accessories.

3. I should have been a redhead.

4. I wish I could have finished that last semester at JCU.

5. I love animals much more than people.

6. I am not as ugly as I tend to think.

7. I am terrible at spending money.

8. I need to smile more often.

9. I have frequent blonde moments.

Eight Ways to Win My Heart:

1. Touch my face when you kiss me.
2. Call me m’dear or something similar.
3. Laugh at and with me.
4. Tease and/or tickle me.
5. Tell me I look or smell good.
6. Be yourself.
7. Rock out with me!
8. Come up behind me and put your arms around my waist. I don’t know why but I love this feeling.

Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot:
1. How can so many nutjobs get a husband but I haven’t yet managed?
2. Should I move to TX?
3. Sex
4. When is payday?
5. How will the house ever get done with just the two of us working on it?
6. Why can’t people in Ohio drive like normal people?
7. I really need to get this tooth fixed.

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:

1. Talk to Max
2. Play with the kitties
3. Snuggle.
4. Brush my teeth.
5. Think
6. Watch General Hospital

Five People Who Mean A Lot:

1. Max
2. Mom and dad.
3. Crystal
4. Laura
5. Layla

Four Things I’m Wearing Right Now:

1. Black swing pants
2. Gray curvy sweater
3. Cute black heels
4. Bunch of jewelry

Three Songs That I Listen to Often (Currently):

1. Ours to keep by Kina Grannis
2. My baby (shoots her mouth off) by Margot and the Nuclear so and so’s
3. Afterglow by Ian Axel

Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. Go back to Europe
2. Make a difference

One Confession:

I am still really insecure.