#20 It was good
All during our 2 1/2 years together, Emmett never said I love you to me. I always wondered why, and when I asked I never got a straight answer so I gave up wondering.
Why then, does he say it every night now? I’ve made it clear that I don’t think it was a mistake to break up and I’m not really looking to get into anything (for a variety of reasons) and I just want some time to be with me and not have to worry about boyfriends and the likes. He seems to have completely fallen back in love me, probably more so than he ever was the first time around.
Truth be told, it scares me a little bit.
I don’t know what to feel. I am most likely just feeling vulnerable due to the departure of Max and everything. I really don’t want to hurt someone that has always been so good to me but I just don’t think I can go down that road again. Between him and Max in less than a year, I really just need a break.
Caught you on the front page…Im going to add you to faves and read back a bit. Guys are like that. I know it sorta happened that way with my finace…he ended it once for a bit (less then a month or about that) but then when he came back he came back with a vengence, completly throwing himself into the relationship. A lot of men need to feel like they are in control, yet the minute they are and they feel like you dont completly need them anymore, it makes them work hard at being the guy they should have been in the first place.
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just do whatever feels right. my only worry is that he wants what he can’t have, and that if you allow this thing to happen, that he’ll just go back to the old ways of not committing or really giving you much of anything. i worry that it’s almost a manipulation thing. it could be genuine — that’s a whole other matter if that’s the case. i don’t know. just take it slow and do what feels right!
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remember when tommy broke up with me? he did truly commit to me when he decided to do the crawl-back-to-me routine. i never really doubted his commitment before then, though. and i did make him kiss serious ass when we got back together. and i am so glad that i did give him a second chance (obviously). so i guess it all depends on how emmett really seems, and how you’re feeling, truly.
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I say do what you need to do and don’t rush into anything.
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It’s funny who it takes a break up for people to realize what they might lose.. *hugs*
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