Quick update

So….I realize I haven’t updated in TWO years, wow.

Haha well alot of that has to do with the fact that up and until now, I hadn’t really had my OWN computer in which to dispell my innermost thoughts, secrets, and desires without the possibility of some nosey stranger (or not) happening upon that which was not intended for them to see…

So, you ask what has happened since?

Well, I no longer live in my own apartment, no…sadly I went from my haven to hell…but here’s what happened first!

Donny came back to me in a terrible fit of jealousy [a backfire of the plan set in place by a few jealous wenches, methinks] , and shortly after, we conceived our second son, Joshua!

Do to some shadiness on our Apt. Manager’s behalf, we had to move out of our apartment and into a Motel. It wasn’t the best of situations, especially since we had to stay the weekends at his mums house, where his sister also lived…or lives…and she would basically spend the days ranting and raving on how she hated people living there…[nevermind the fact that we too HER in twice and consequently lost out on two good homes]…eventually, we were saved [so we thought] by his aunt.

Before we moved in with her, we loved this aunt very much. We spent alot of weekends/holidays with her and she was nothing short of welcoming and loving….she promised us a room, a chance to get on our feet, and help in restoring our credit! How could we not accept? So we moved out to Rancho Cucamonga…

Okay so here I am pregnant, and for the next 3 months, sleeping on the floor in the living room…no privacy, no bed…and two obnoxious kids with NO RESPECT for anyone. Finally she tells us that she’s having a shed built (she doesnt want to turn the garage into a room for us anymore because then where will her son play his drums?)….but, the shed will be marvelous,  it will be insulated and painted and carpeted, and will basically look like a room…soo…okay, we agree…and she…delivered? We got the shed…half assed dry wall up, and then told that it was the best they could do because no one is allowed to live in sheds…unless they’re built to code and she didn’t want to pay for all that…puhleeze….

So over the summer my belly size increases, and the heat of the summer turns our shed into an oven! We couldn’t live in it at all, we spent the days at WalMart or Food 4 Less relaxing in the A/C they offered. The baby was born into this shed…and there we lived. When the winter came it was freezing…I am so glad my children survived it and I am eternally sorry that I allowed us to live like that…we payed $500 a month, on top of a $150 storage bill, along with a $400 van payment….with just Donny working…at minimum wage… we hardly had money for food, and what we did buy we’d have to keep with us in the shed, because they would eat it if we kept it in the house (mind you also, the shed is over 30 feet away from the house and in the night/rain when we had to use the bathroom, we would have to walk the crooked, overgrown with foliage path to get to the house, which sometimes they’d lock us out of…also, gophers would die under the shed and maggots would creep thru the unfinished floors that also gave us splinters and blisters) and even after I got a job myself, we still barely made it. Not to mention the fact that one of the boys might have molested my son….but I cant go into that…

So one day I ask Donny, with the impending visit of his dad, what he would do if his Dad came to us and asked us to move to Nebraska with him? Donny gave it a second to think over and said that he would take him up on the offer….

So the day comes and VIOLA! Donny’s dad asked us to move to Nebraska! Of course to me, this was a sign. I had the desire, and God gave us the opporatunity, this had to be meant for us! Witihin a WEEK AND A HALF we were out of the shitty shack and the aunt who took advantage of us…moved into a HUGE room in my aunts house, paying only $250 a month!  Donny eventually got a job and right now we’re doing all that we can to get ready for the big move on the first of September.

My relationship with Donny hasn’t been perfect, but we’ve stuck together thru the good and bad. I look at him as he sleeps on my side, his hand carefully rested on my thigh, and I know that even if I had to go thru another 20 years or more of difficulty, this is the man I truly love and want to be with, I believe in my heart that he loves me right back…our kids are crazy, but they’re so wonderfully awesome, what more could I ask for? The only thing that would make this perfect is Donny’s salvation, but I’m leaving that where I left our lives, in Gods hands…he’s getting closer and closer as time goes by and I feel so happy thinking that one day we’re all going to be happy and together in Heaven. Rejoicing in the promised paradise. Haha, sorry to go off on a tangent, but I had to thank GOD because he got me thru it all, and I give thanks where thanks are called for!

So yea, thats the last two years in a nutshell…I promise to update regularly, trust me i have alot to say! Especially since I work Graveyard and no one is around to talk to, I’ll just vent here! So stay tuned for the next episode: Securitas…the security company from hell!!! Haha!