where has my life gone?

Current Mood: mildly depressed
Current Song: citadel by the cruxshadows

So I’m on myspace last night, bored out of my mind and I started thinking about all the friends that i’ve known in the past..  I started to think about my little middle school sweetheart, Sarah. I typed her name in and nothing came up. Then I thought maybe her sisters have a myspace account. I typed in their names and a few results came up but one of them was in fact  Sarah’s little sister. I went to her profile and saw that all 3 of them had myspaces.. the reason sarah’s didn’t come up was because her last name has since changed from 14 years ago lol. Anyhow, I emailed each one of them, seeing how life was thus far, etc.. all of them are married and wonderfully happy…

which gets me to thinking… where the hell has my life gone? What the hell have i been doing? Sarah’s married and a teacher in VA… Steph’s newly married and living in TX, and lil Sharon.. only 9 years old when i met her, has grown up to be  an absolutely beautiful 23 year old..

all 3 of them are gorgeous.. they’ve blossomed greatly.. i’m truly happy for them and their life.. they’ve accomplished so much and yet they’re still young ladies…

so I threw myself a pity party last night… I’ve been wasting my time for so long.. this reality check , I didn’t see coming. a few semesters off from college turned into 6 years a bit too quickly..

*ponders with a tear*