To You

July 8th, 2005.. that was the last night we spoke. Our conversation ended in a terrible bitter feud. My jealousy, your anger.

However, my heart was still your home.

Have you ever seen the movie “Heart & Souls?” It was about a little boy that ‘inherits’ 4 souls when he was born. These 4 souls were to look over him but at the same time, they were meant to complete their life’s dream through him. The little boy was the only one that could see these 4 people/souls. He’d play, dance, sing, & talk to them. After a few years, his parents started thinking their son was a bit mental because he was still talking to his “imaginary” friends. To keep the boy out of trouble, the 4 souls decided to disappear and fade away from him. Little did he know that they were still bound to him, he just couldn’t see him. Years pass, middle school, highschool, college, girlfriend after girlfriend, the 4 souls saw it all.. and why not? They were watching over him….

My point is that no matter how much time passes, no matter now little you see someone, or even if you’ve never seen them, met them, hugged them, kissed them, if there’s a connection, it will last a lifetime. I don’t go around calling myself an angel, but you think I am. You’ve called me one before the last day and on that last day, I wasn’t such an angel to you.

You needed to find out for yourself what all of your friends and family have been telling you all along, but like I said, YOU had to find out yourself.. it’s taken 2½ almost 3 years for you to realise how much pain you were really in.

Like the souls in the movie, I’ve watched over you since our last day. I’m sorry about your father, I’m sorry about him, I’m sorry I didn’t speak up on a lot of things that have happened to you, but I do know that I have NEVER been far from your mind.
After all, it was you that contacted me.
It was you that wished upon a star
It was you that got back on track
It was you that stopped the control
It was you that opened your eyes
It was all you.

I’m so proud of you

You’ve always had a place in my heart
You’ve always remained in my thoughts
You’ve always had the strength to keep going

The girl I once knew was little Miss Cheerleader, translplanted into sin city
The girl I know now is no longer a girl, but a young lady.. still your smile remains pure

Life’s best lesson, “retrospect is always 20/20.”