highschool
Movies to my highschool experience: having learning problems, anxiety disorder, autism and grief your ex killed himself..and rape and someone diregard you in woods… along many other SA stories.. keep in mind my autism wasn’t like it is now, hardly autistic, I was very autistic in that while verbal I didn’t socialize, I had very hard time talking and bad shit kept happen, also depresstion IEP they killed my dreams telling me I was stupod never going college, I was failure…so many bad stories..only good i was health, better health when i was 12/14 i had stomach ulcer, during worse years 15-18 i was XC runner, loved running saved my stomach.
- 13 reason why…. I was Clay…. unlike clay who didn’t know Hanna was just friends, he was my ex boyfriend I knew everything all deep stories about his parent divorce, all this deep shit, I said nothing… I was scared.. I would go up to his sister and freeze.. When I ran outside I remember once on track I ran so fucking fast I ran my heart out, I watch his sister get high on the side of track, the pain was killing me that he was dead. My ex bf rich killed himself at age 13
- 1 mile to you– this movie is another very good movie about my hs last few years when I was one the best runners in the state I was dealing with worse case grief in my life, worse case anxiety, I was fucking depressed out my mind, i wanted die every single day… why if I am stupid I can’t go college, I cant be anything, just very deep cynical
- Speak- about girl who deal with very bad rape situations which cause her stop talking, act very dissociated
- Please stand by- autistic girl who can’t follow social norms get anxious and doesn’t understand things other would, cares about things that doesnt make sense.