“Don’t be cruel to a heart that’s true.” – song by Elvis Presley

To be honest, I’m not really in the mood to write but I want to take as much advantage as I can from this free trial which ends next week.

I was exhausted much of the weekend and a lot of it was poor sleep and coming down a mental high, but today I woke up with a cold as well. My mental state crashes and in turn affects my physical state which lowers my immune defences and here we are, I’m not a doctor but that makes sense, I think. Everything is connected. My body is also selfish and pleads for sexual release because it wants it’s shot of endorphins. My body is cruel to me in so many, so many ways.

I feel so lost because I’ve no idea what’s been going on in the world. Obviously we are all still here so no nuclear war has set. Obviously more pain, destruction, loss, greed, power and money or this world would have come to an end by now. I will get back on track again. First I need rest and a reset. Judge me, but I wish someone could help me release the tension, though I’m not stupid. Sperm contains beta-endorphins, FYI.

Anyway, I’m taking a nap. I’ll come back later.