Caught between logic and longing
This is ridculous and embarrassing, but the thought undeniably exists. Even if it only exists within the thousands of dark prison chambers in my mind. Chained and locked behind heavy metal doors.
A pull of curiosity.
I’m living in a foolish world of wonder. There is no sense of reason here. I’m being pathetic. I’m overanalyzing moments that stand on shaky ground. I’m teetering on the edge of an unspoken hope that I will never have an answer to.
Here I am. Fighting myself. I don’t want to admit this is real. This will pass, right? Maybe tomorrow I will wake up from this nonsense.
Being human is the most frustrating part of this all.
This post is the most frustrating part of this all. It’s 2:23 am. I’m not going to erase it and start over.
Yeah, that’s the problem of being human, right? Stuck inside our heads. It’s a wonder that nobody has come up with a drug that will turn our brains into dogs or cats. Their lives seem so much simpler.
@ravdiablo I don’t know if I want to lick my butt all day or poop in a litter box.
@deepestthoughtsofalonelywoman I’d want to be one of those outdoor pets, so I can poop wherever I want….
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Just the fact that you’re willing to write anything at such an early hour of the morning is impressive. Yes, being human can be a challenge. It’s an even bigger challenge for the introverted population. Still, I manage, just as I believe that you do too.
@peripheral_visionary I don’t know if it’s impressive. I sleep like crap. I was losing myself for a minute but I’m alright, for now.
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