Alright, well

So this is going to sound crazy to some, I’m sure, and it’s really embarrassing for me, but I just recently bought my first d*ldo 🫢 I’m not young but I’m not old. It’s not a religious or cultural thing. I have honestly always been curious about having one but just never took the plunge to actual buy one. I’m not going to tell you where I bought it from, though. I’ve already embarrassed myself enough. I haven’t used it yet. I know this is NOT a big deal for most people, but I don’t know, for whatever reason it is for me. I feel like this is making me sound immature but I’m just being very open and honest. I needed to express this fact about me so it’s now out there. My libido has been high recently and I need something different to give me more release.

I’m feeling as if I am on the cusp of a shift in my life. I’m heading towards another mental growth if that’s the best way to describe it. Not really an awakening but something along the lines of an realization of myself that what I felt like I couldn’t do, I now feel slightly more confident. I am still very much self-conscious and reserved but the little person inside me wants to express herself in a more honest and unashamed way