I just want to be loved

Hello again…well I am here at my parents house just thinking about men. Why is it so hard to find Mr. Right? I have been with all kinds of men. Those real attractive guys that have nothing going for them or they are staright assholes (but of couse I am attracted to them) or those guys that are unattractive that have all the right qualities I look for (but I am not attracted to). That’s what I use to meet when I was alone. Now that I have my boyfriend, I really do love him. I am attracted to him sexually, i love that he is emotional and protective, and that he is sweet when he can be. But…he has the worst attitude when he is mad. He is like a firecracker. He gets so angry sometimes, it is scarey. But is this the guy that I want to be with for the rest of my life? Do I just deal with his anger issues when everything else is great? I know we have to make sacrifices sometimes, but should I even do that with him? Am I wasting my time? Believe me I was pissed the Hell off when he pulled that stunt on me when I was sick. But I forgave him when he kept apologizing to me all day the following day. I just don’t know. But I guess everyone has flaws. And not everyone is perfect.

Well let me run. I have laundry to do and I am getting depressed. I think I need a pill….

Talk to you soon.
Later Days…….
DeeJ