Here A Pill……There A Pill……

You know something…I have been taking my pills like they are going out of style. I take them when I’m down. I take them when I am up. I take them where ever I feel like it. That is sad. But then I’m like well..you don’t want pain do you??  I think I am getting more and more depressed about this. Which is bad cuz all I’ll do is what?? Take A PILL…then things will be fine. There are some of you who wonder what kind of pills I take. I take a lot. I have a blood disorder which makes me have a lot of pain. So, I have pain killers. Then I have pills for my depression. Depression you say?? Yes, DeeJ is clinically depressed. I know I don’t sound like it sometimes but I am. So I have anti-depressant pills as well. I just pop’em like candy. I sometimes mix the two which is really not good. But what are you gonna do?? I just say, well at least you’ll feel good.  Not to mention the other billion other pills I take for blood pressure, different heart meds..it’s carzy. I know you are thinking like..DAMM this chick is F* up!! But let me tell you, I sure don’t look it!!! I seriously take care of myself. I dress very neatly, my hair is always done…ALWAYS. I don’t play around with that. People are really shocked  when I tell them that I am sick. I do these things because I really don’t want to "LOOK" sick. People with the same thing I have look sick and feeble. And I will be dammed if I look like it. You know I have to remain FAB....But anyways……..

I sometimes feel high when I talk to clients and I get Mega Chatty!! But other times I just sit there like a zombie saying things like.."Uh huh…hmmmm…really? How did that happen?…or my favorite….tell me more about that….." I think I gotta stop with the pills soon. At least the anti-depressants. I can’t stop the pain killers. Even though I would like too. I have some friends say, DAMM I wish I had access to pain killers…. Let me tell you. I would rather have another eye on top of my forhead looking like a cyclops gone wrong, then to constantly take pain pills for what I have. When I say that, people are like….whooooo she is sick. But whatever….I don’t wish my worst enemy with what I have….well..maybe a little..

Ok…I feel much better ranting…It’s almost time to get my ass home. Come on 5 o’clock already. I just got out of a staff meeting which made me super tired!

Well….guess what time it is?? Time for a PILL..whooo hooo!!!

Have a great weekend KIDS…….

Later Days…

DeeJ