My hello to you

hello.

About me is all in my name.. deadpink. Half dead and half alive. The dead part happened when I was 16 years old. My father was in a car accident which left him paralyzed and on life support. Ultimately dying when I was 18. When my father died, the bigger part of me died too. Me, my life.. has never been the same. I struggle with it every single day and it does not leave my mind. Everything and everyone is a reminder of losing myself. Sometimes I feel like I am living a life that I wasn’t suppose to have.

Me being alive… is my kids. Without them I don’t have a purpose. They gave me life. My biggest goal in life is to have a home just like the one I grew up in.

I live in Northern California. I am married to a man that I have been with for over 7 years. His name is Bryan. I have three kids. One is my step daughter, Adia, who is 10. My daughter, Kylie, who is also 10. (Two months apart) and My son Colt who is 2.5.  I work in the medical field for a diabetes specialist. My husband is a cook for a local restaurant of 17 years.

My main focus right now is just keeping my head above water.

Everyone has a story. Here is mine. Welcome.