Rant & Rave…Ignore If Wanted..

Bleh…

 Life seems to be going down hill…I’ve just felt so outta place these few days….Work is back to sucking worse, which I have to start closing 3 nights a week again…I couldn’t even take 2 days off in a row…I wanted to take off Friday b/c Resident Evil comes out and John and I were gonna go watch it, but I can’t take 2 weekend days off….Sooo I’ve been trying to work a couple more hours this week just to get off earlier…Mamaw’s bitched me out tonight for really no reason at all…Between her and work stress is killing me….I’m counting down the days until my vacation in October…The furance for our house works with the ac but the heater doesn’t work so I had to spend $400 helping mamaw get gas heaters…Then the other day my speedometer quit in my car….That could be like $400 to fix, but they have a used one that is $100, I just hope the used one works if not I’m screwed…It’s always something….Furthermore, being a loner has it’s flaws I get lonley sometimes and depressed b/c I feel like no1 cares for me….I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me it’s just the way I feel…Sometimes I lay here crying for no reason, and I hate to cry….It just doesn’t make any sense…In my younger days I just didn’t give a fuck, now I’m a worry wart and I stress over too many things that don’t really mean anything….I think way too much about things in my head…Maybe I’m just crazy….Eh well I just hope things get better before I go off worse…My horoscope said the other day I was gonna meet someone new and things might not work out but I would remember this person for along time…That is so funny I laughed hard b/c I know thats not true…There’s never no1 new in the Ville…But oh well I guess I’ll quit ranting…That’s one thing I like bout od is that you can rant and rave about shit in my life…So that is all for now…

DeAdMaRy