I Belong In The Land Of Misfit Toys…*Rant*

Hey…

Finally back to OD, I wouldn’t have known what was wrong with the site unless I hadn’t liked it on fb…Any who, just had to rant and rave a minute to get things off my chest…I saw someone in my past life the other that makes me sick to my stomach literally…I just had to grit my teeth and bare talking to him…I told Cindy literally I’d kill him if I had the chance…My past life is unknown to many…Not everyone knows the past I’ve gone through, but I just couldn’t seeing him…The mamaw sitatution is stressing me out…Friday makes 2 weeks, and its really hard to adjust since she’s not been here…She has to eat 3 times a day and take 2 shots a day and her meds…She can’t walk to good and her right leg hurts her…It’s been red, which my uncle said she has infection in it, which couldn’t be good, plus her knee is really swollen…I’ve helped her take showers, done laundry, make food until I’m sick…My uncle suggested her going back and forth maybe 2 weeks there and 2 weeks here if I was going to take the Campton manager position…Plus he said he would have to get the shower fixed/a ramp built ouside and railings/get her a hospital bed/and chair she could sit in, which she has down there at his already…I don’t think its possible she has to have someone here at all times, even though she stayed by herself there…I can’t handle it…She’s like my mom and I feel like its my responsiblity to help her, but I’m going to break down…I took her to Winchester Saturday…At chinese she done good, the dollar tree I pushed her in a wheel chair, at Walmart she got the riding thing and her leg was cramping, so we both got aggervated and left…I don’t have patience…I feel like crying over this stituation but it wouldn’t help…I emailed my uncle and asked if he could keep her a couple weeks extra b/c my vacation is coming up and Lora is coming to visit, no response as of yet…It’s like a cliff hanger…I feel like I try to help other people and try my best, but in the end I always get shit on…My life blows ass…Nobody seems to care about me, they always care about theirselves…I need to step up and tell them, but maybe I’m just a too nice of a person to say no…In other news, Mindy got an apartment, and are going in the morning to get the keys, so they can move in anytime…She is getting married on July 16th, but they don’t have anything planned as of yet…I have to go to orentation next week at the college with her…I just told her I hope for the best for her and Kraig…They got all kinds of job apps and going to put them in tomorrow as well…So here I am again stuck in the middle…Why is my life always like this?…I hope in the end by doing all this it helps me, but eh its me nothing ever goes to the good side…I’m a pos that will never amount to anything…I don’t really care if I rot in a hole…But anywayz I wanted to get shit off my chest, and I’m glad OD is kind of up…

DeAdMaRy