Somewhere. Right now.
So.
Somewhere right now, a girl is crying because a boy just broke up with her. Maybe she’s in seventh grade and he passed her a final note and the next time she sees him it’s with the most popular girl in class. Or maybe she’s in her thirties and getting desperate because of that mommy clock and he began to get claustrophobic because both of them knew he wasn’t The One.
It’s happening somewhere. Right now.
Right now, someone out there is very scared because he knows hes about to be found out.
Maybe its because he wet his bed for the fourth time during his nap and his mother hates it when he does that so he shoves the sheets to the back of the closet hoping really hard that theyll disappear.
Or maybe it’s this one guy downtown who owes money to someone who does not like to wait. He’d bet it on the game last night and lost it all. He has no backup now and he’s cowering almost now, waiting – for the guy – or to fight if he has to. Just waiting.
Right now, someone is finding out she’s pregnant for the first time. Right now someone just booked a flight out of obligation. Right now there’s someone out there who feels very, very alone.
Maybe it’s the girl drinking at home because she thinks it’ll make her appear cool, and as she ages she is hanging on desperately to that ‘edge’ that she always strived for and sometimes believed she had.
Maybe it’s the guy who just told his girlfriend that he needed “time” and some “space” to figure things out, but he knows those are only platitudes used to postpone the inevitable – knowing he’s going to break her heart and maybe a little of his own too.
There’s someone sitting at home tonight, typing into their computer, keeping an online journal that no one knows about. Maybe shes crafted an image that she perfected a long time ago and now she almost believes that this person shes pretended to be really IS her. Almost.
Someone old died today in a way that was not controversial at all. He will not be mentioned on the news tonight. But his family grieves. They feel like someones reached into their chest and grabbed their heart, punched it. Punched them. And all those tears. What do you do with all those tears?.
Maybe someone is getting proposed to. Maybe a twelve-year-old girl is on her bed, making a collage of celebrities she thinks are SO cute! Ashton, Orlando, Usher! with glue and phrases cut out of magazines like ElleGirl. Shell decorate the wall near her bed.
Or someone could be playing the saxophone on stage for the first time, sweat on his brow, nervous, but playing very, very well..
Or someone could be thinking about killing herself. Though no one around her would know it from her bright and sassy way. She was larger than life but it seems that she decided life should be larger than her. She left notes. She got a gun. And she let her partner find her that way.
Somewhere, someplace, anything that’s ever happened is happening again. As it always will. To somebody someone of us knows. It’s mind-numbing but somehow cathartic to understand just how not the center of Creation any of us really is. How far the spectrum of existence stretches from Good to Bad and how great the space is in between…
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There’s someone on the ganj, out there right now who actually understood everything I’d just said.
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That someone sounds like me. *sig* Beautiful entry, sad but beautiful just the same. Monica
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You always amaze me with your writing.
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How very true this is….
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Anything can be happening right now, good or bad. How true. Take care.
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so honest it scares me. this is the world i hide from. xx
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argh. yes. so true.
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This was cool.
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right here, right now, a guy was reminded how talented you are.
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You’ve just reminded me of how lucky I really am. Because although there are people going through all of those horrible experiences, like I go through mine… there is always someone else who has it worse, & would trade everything they had to spend five minutes as me. The guy in a wheel chair, the girl with cancer, and all of those poor souls with terminal illness. We really are lucky.
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The world is certainly an interesting, dynamic, challenging place!!
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I miss the days where life was simple and I was that 12 year old sitting on my bed thinking about who was cute and cutting their pictures out for my collage! LOL
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it boggles the mind. i think you are amazing.
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the last paragraph is not autobiographical.
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i really liked this
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It´s a type of emotional vertigo – to realise just how tiny one human life is. How tiny, and how central to the individual. Beautiful writing. xx
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I loved this, you’re just so good.
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beautiful writing. really made me think.
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I freaking HATE it when I’m late to the party and something I really love is already on Reader’s Choice. Dammit.
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wow. what a way to put everything!
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Somewhere right now, Van Halen is playing on someone’s stereo.
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ps: I’m OBSESSED with alice in wonderland right now. also, I know wonderland ave is one of your favorite streets. i like the title on you.
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r: I totally understand. 🙂
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Right now, hey, it’s all tomorrow. 🙂 Nice. Great writing, D.
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Your entry seemed to hit me at the right time. The chaos of life is put into a different perspective and I realize that my life is just part of the human experience we all share. Thank you.
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this is such a powerful entry… but we can’t give up hope…
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somewhere, right now, a dude wishes the hottest bitch in the world would write again.
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and now and now and now and now. it’s all happening over and over again. it’s weird to think about. at least for me.
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thank well i guess the DM for the search option as i thought of this entry you wrote, having read it way back when, this morning and i was just aching to read it and YAY!!!!
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