Same problem from before

I know it shouldn’t make me mad, it’s really frustating. Haven’t they heard of a friendship before?!? They really make me mad… i keep trying to tell myself i dont’ care, but you know i do.. but on another level i really don’t.. it’s weird.. I know no one at school understnds, that we are Just friends.. and i’m pretty sure the whole band think “were going out” now

At the end of band, we we’re in the auditorium again, matt came and played chess with his friends again. at the end of the period, like 7 minutes before it ended he came over and sat next to me. I think those things annoy him too, but he thinks of it differently i think, i dunno. For the first few mintutes, we weren’t like holding hands, but i think my hand slah arm was under his.. but yea… and closer to the end of the period.. we were in the same postiion and stuff, then the teacher was like” eww no touching…” stuff liek that.. of course a female teacher… but sheesh that jsut puts the spot light on us… which otherwise i don’t care but then ppl start asking stuff.. well that happened later.. as she was sayign that i pretended to hit him..lol 

After that happened, like 30 seconds later, this kid a friend of both of ours was leaning over the chairs and staring at us.. i’m like how long have you been there… he’s like a logn time… i’m like sheesh… not like we were talking about anythign we were saying how our days were and all that jazz… I know he was only joking around, which i dont’ mind as much wehn he does it.  But then after the bell rang we got up and ppl were asking me if we went out.. i said no.. and they;re like i think you do…. Now wouldn’t you think I’d knwo if WE went out…. ahhh come on.. it’s my businnes.. I should know MY OWN BUSINESS!!….

Oh eya when we weer out side of my 5th period class, this girl i sort of knew.. not really, asked us…. were like no… she’s like i think you do..

AHHh  if we were going out.. or together.. don’t youthink we would be proud of that fact… and we;d say yes.. Come On Now……gahhhhh.

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ok gonna leave GAHHHHHH