THE LAST GOOD BYE

 There you were in front of me, cigarette out your mouth reading my note on the yellow paper and I saw your face fall a little.  The stereo played & we shared our last moments together knowing I would be leaving soon.  There we were in the warm of the car as the wind howled & screamed outside & smoke filled this tiny space.

I wondered how I could be in this place again with you after all this time.  And I wondered how I could leave you alone again.  I could see you were upset & I was too.  Here we were two people who knew eachother so well & then we were about to become strangers.  Again.

I picture myself at the airport on the phone with you begging & pleading & crying out loud for you.  I knew you couldnt come rescue me like you had so many times before.  And I got on that plane.  As the plane took off all the sound drowned out my sobs for you.

And then I was gone again.