This is my space

I feel the need to remind myself that this is a safe space. This is a space I shouldn’t have to edit because I want to impress others or need their affirmations. While those things are great, this has always been a place to just…express. On that note..

Tomorrow marks the end of quarantine. Neg test, no sx. Happy dance. My hospital is no longer to remain ‘clean’ as the Covid numbers are just too high. But, we hope to limit the number that we receive/ keep. James and I are on the same page. I will continue to work as long as I have the proper gear. If that changes, then hopefully my boss with be awesome enough to let me take a step back as I’m only per diem and have more than filled my yearly obligation.

I think quarantine has been hardest on Quinn and my in laws. They miss each other. James went to just drop off some Amazon packages to my MIL, but they couldn’t resist. They all played outside for an hour in the cold wind and Q couldn’t have been happier. She had too short of a nap and turned into a tiny terror about 2130. But once I pinned her down in my lap, she passed out through the first 10 minutes of Big Bang Theory. My heart sighed holding her as she slept for another 20 minutes before carrying her to bed. Sometimes it’s to remind you how precious they are when they’re stomping on your last nerve, and sometimes I think it’s just…I don’t know, peace.

Onto other things that are not so peaceful. It’s Js birthday today. Oh the anxiety, giddy happiness, and quiet sadness all rolled into one. I texted him at eight in the morning..but only after verifying he had already been on FB. I typed out and erased, what felt like a million, and was probably only 15 or so different responses. It used to be so easy talking to him. I miss my friend. I would like to think we’re both mature enough to have an adult friendship with boundaries. He’s just like no one else I’ve ever met. Of course I told James and he asked if me chatting with J was a regular thing now. Yes. I’m aware you would love it if I forgot he existed. 🙄 Js move to MI might have been postponed or moved back, of which I’m not surprisingly apathetic about. We shall see how that plays out. Jessica is from here. We will eventually run into each other.

and last, but not least, I got rid of KU so I could catch up on my TBR pile that was starting to get a little out of hand and surprise, not surprise, I’ve started The Elantra Chronicles by Michelle Sahara, again. Ok, to be fair, (to be fair 😋) I ordered and finished Severn’s story, and remembered how much I adore him. I’ll wander back to Albany Walker, M. Sinclair, and Sadie Moss next week.