Hiding

Wisdom can be found in the strangest of places. I dl TikTok. And regardless of how ridiculous it sounds, I’m starting to find myself again. Finding that I am not as alone as I felt. Connecting with people.

I couldn’t write before because I was hiding. Playing ostrich. Knowing that I have to put an end to this marriage for the good of myself and Quinn, and even James.. and trying so hard to find reasons not to. Just giving him one more millionth chance. Needed him to hear me and really work WITH me if he truly wanted to keep this relationship. But I know. It sucks.

All I can hear is the echo of J telling me not to marry him the night before I did.

My SIL, Erica says sometimes people come together to have the perfect baby.

I don’t know. It doesn’t matter. The plan is to hopefully be rehired by the VA full time and have the job x 3 months. Hopefully by that time, they will have released a vaccine for Quinn’s age group.

I promise not to hide any more. This is going to suck and be freeing in varying amounts.