On the brink

The world, for once, is an enless possibility. I no longer seem to see a darkened road that leads to a lonely demise as an old man, or a middle adged man wrapped around a tree one fateful day. I see the possibility of a life with another. Again, but this time, having learnt from the past, I go into wary of my actions, and careful not to feel infalible or irreplacable.

This journey, requires a lot of mental effort. It requires the utter belief of the keys I hold dear. Trust, Respect and Fidelity. This lady, who holds my heart and soul, has shown me these things, and expected nothing but the same in return.  She forgives me my failings, as others have in the past, and also understands the root of their begginings a bit more then those before her.  She’s is only angered when I cause concern that hasn’t been spoken about, or when I hide how i feel from her.

As I watch this lady sleep right now, while 28hours by plane away,I am overcome with a sense of well being, and fulfillment. That the day has come were, perhaps,  where I may settle down and be able to spend my life with another.  Am I sad I hadn’t found this sooner? No, evidently those were not to be, but knowing they go on happy, well one of them (shithead :P), is enough.

It is a new week, hopefully it brings with it the feelings I have stopped feeling these past two. The utter happiness, and no not the "ending of the honeymoon period", that I have felt is returning. The smiles are there. As is the laughter.

It might be a good day to die, but it’s a fucking great day to live.