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So I am trying this thing where I write every day just to see if I can.
Tonight I was stuck in the control room..like I will be for this whole month just because I am on light duty for fucking my arm up. I am just glad it was my left..cause I am righty…my gun my writing my car stuff is all needed for my right hand..I would be so FUBAR if it had been my right LMAO
Last night I was in the control room with Brown for a bit but she had to drive to DJJ like an hour away to transport some one so..Baer had to come in and cover for her for like 4 hours..which wasnt that bad..I was on Control hall tonight.
When I did get my break I walked into staff dining and I saw everyone in the room and I was like..fu(k so I went to the admin area to eat.. the quiet wasn’t so bad..I got a chance to look at some stuff on my phone so 20 mins went by pretty fast.
I have noticed that I am starting to pull back…withdraw from everyone..at work at least. I am still pretty cool with all my friends at home..I guess as much as I love the thin blue line sometimes you just need the quiet of solitude. You know for being 112 you would think I have all this down pat you know? (I am older than that but 😉 no one knows the true age of this old vamp hehe)
I am hoping that they dont do interviews for the road this month..because I dont think they will accept me to road with my arm all messed up..especially seeing as my range of motion..its not what it should be..but I have had it in a sling for a week now..and the ROM has gotten better…just not perfect..I cant really straighten my arm out and shoot it straight up like I used to..or reach behind or across my body…cause the back of my shoulder just above the blade screams at me…yea I said screams..Once I start moving it above shoulder level it gets pretty tight..but I can move it alot smoother and faster than the days following the injury..Well thats it for today…one more night and Ill have my weekend to enjoy..
So i guess this is it for the night..if you’re new around here. Welcome to the world of Gareth De Lionourt. It’s twisted…kinda insane..but its home. You’re welcome to look around, say what you want…do what you want..just realize, I am not perfect..I am not like you..or any one you will ever meet in more ways than 1. I am just me..take me…leave me..love me..hate me..I dont care..probably never will.
~*Sweet Nightmares*~,
Gareth