Bad idea.

For the first time since we broke up, I went to Kristen’s diary. Don’t ask me why. I get into trouble when I’m home alone for long periods of time. Any entry after August is set to private or FO because the last one I see was August 8th, when she had been here 2 months. Everything was fantastic. She talked about how we bought furniture together and were setting goals together as a couple and how “this is where I should’ve been all along”…….. of course, then Jen said she wanted her back and BAM! GONE! Lies. All lies. She never loved me.

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January 5, 2011

While I don’t think she ever did anything to deserve you, I’m sure she wouldn’t have done those things if she didn’t love you. All of this is part of the moving on process. You have to let these feelings out to get past them. And it might not feel like it right now, but you will. And you’re going to find someone who is actually deserving of everything you’re willing to give!

January 5, 2011

I agree with white elephants… you just have to let it all go. No excuse or reason she ever gives you will make it ok or make you feel better. You are hurting and that’s ok. Maybe until you are more healed you should just put space between you and them. Break ups are always hard and sucky, but you will get through this!

January 5, 2011

its hard not to go back to those places. I know how it is.

January 5, 2011

I think we both need to stop focusing on our past and look ahead to bright, wonderful futures filled with love and butterflies and rainbows…and, in my case, marshmallows.

January 5, 2011

RYN: Baby, you can have all the marshmallows you want! DW…the elusive Wiener…he sucks. 🙂

March 18, 2011

Sarah I agree with white elephants…even though Sarah seems to have never really done anything to truly deserve you and your unselfishness…she would not have moved and set forth a plan without caring and loving. Sometimes the type of love we want is not the type of love we get. Even though there shouldn’t be an enough measurement…in our standards it exists. What you wanted..and what she was

March 18, 2011

capable of at the time. Sometimes we never know why **** happens…just that it does. I hope you are moving along much easier :-/