Update on my life

Dear Diary,

I just realized I haven’t written in a long time, so I thought I’d try.  A lot has happened to me since the summer, and I am sure I have pleny to write about.

Ryan and I are still together.  We’ve had our brawls and made up.  Mostly they have begun because of his drinking.  He is still living at home with his parents, still has no job nor the desire to get one.  I left my job at the end of July so I have been unemployed for 3 months now.  It is terrible and I am sorry I didn’t just stick with my job, but I didn’t want to cost the firm any money by making an error.  There was a lot of pressure on me as well and I couldn’t take much more of it.  I am still living back and forth between Ryan’s and my mother’s house.  Lately I have had an accident with my mother’s car and put a small dent in it and damaged my left back tail-light.  It sucks not having any spending money and I went so far as to take money from my mother’s checking account and not telling her so I would have money.  My mother doesn’t have much money and neither do I.  I sucks being poor, especially with the holidays approaching.

Speaking of holidays, I had a pretty good Halloween.  I passed out candy at my mother’s house and then left for Ryan’s.  My friend Heather had invited me to a Halloween party at her house, which was mostly just eating, drinking, and watching movies.  We watched a few movies like Sleepy Hollow, Trick R Treat, and Creepshow 2.  Ryan’s all into horror movies, but me not so much.  I love him, but sometimes with his attitudes and mean-spirited drinking I sometimes wonder if he really is the right guy for me.  We’ve been together for over a year now and I hope things get better with us and not worse.  He has already broken my glasses once when he was drunk and now his dad has to give me a check for them and Ryan has to work it off for his dad.

I get word from my mother, who said that my friend Heather said I had changed a lot since I met Ryan.  I don’t know how I’ve changed, but I’m not sure if it’s my friends or my mother talking.  She still doesn’t approve of Ryan and I and will not go to any PFLAG meetings with me.

So anyway here I am at the library looking for any good jobs online and chatting on Facebook.  I’m looking forward to my Christmas party this year and wonder how I’m going to pull it off with lack of money at the moment.  All I can hope for is that things can get better and I pray they will.  Hang in there everyone!