Realization

Dear Diary,

called Ryan last night and wanted to talk to him about our relationship.  I said he thought what we were was more than friends.  He never said this and we never really talked about it.  I said I just wanted to friends for now, but then that begs the question if we can still fool around.  He thinks I’m a great guy and doesn’t want to loose me as a friend.  Also, remember I left my watch at his place one time?  Well last time I guess I left my hat there, so I kinda’ have to go back.  I’m going to hang out with him again tonight, hopefully spend the night again.  This time I’m taking some video games.  He says he hasn’t played video games in a while, so it’ll be fun seeing how he does tonight.  Also I got some honey.  Ever lick honey off your friends’ stomach?  It’s fun doing what I’ve always wanted to do with another guy with him, but then again I really want to slow things down and get to know him better, you know?

I can’t believe it’s mid-August already.  I gotta’ start planning for my Christmas party more.  I need to make the music cassettes and I’m hoping more people will come this year, seeing that I’m now on facebook.  Last year I had 6 people besides myself.  It’ll be a blast!  Still buying prizes, which is the fun part.  Can’t wait to see the look on people’s faces when they win.